Saturday, December 31, 2011


tutup buka mata , we have come to the end of 2011 ( few hours from now la!)

First of all, thank you dear Lord. I'm very grateful that up to this second, I'm still breathing.

When I look back this one whole year, a lot of things happened.

These are some of it ..

Early this year, I got to celebrate the 2011 new year with the Abun Sominding's clan. First time and it was great!

I lost my loved ones unexpectedly - grandpa and uncle.

Broken-hearted for about 1 week plus2 .

Worrying over something that isn't really worth the time - when I think back la. because in the end, I got frustrated juga.

Make and meet new friends - clinical placement, industrial training and church members.

Awesome birthday and christmas - surprise, gifts and compliments!

Went to a school reunion held at Manukan Island without getting sunburn - I'm a first timer to pulau and it's great!

Health problems related to the skins - over!

Receiving a lot of gifts this year - and all of them are my favourites!

Home-attachment was greatly felt after 4 months of holidays sampai I felt I don't want to go back KL - I could've just stayed home and do the laundry! hoho!

Dilemma- either in need of a hair cut or keeping the hair long. hmm.

hmm. I don't quite remember the others. All I can say is that, 2011 is an amazing and wonderful year. I've been through a lot, both the happiness and sadness.

Seeing all the other people on FB posting about their new year's resolution aka azam, I myself begin to wonder - what is my azam for this new year.  Honestly saying, I don't know, I'm not sure and I don't have one, maybe?

The question is - perlukah ada azam baru ni?

I did, yes I did like buat azam baru when entering the 2011. What happened?  the azam I made was only effective for the first three months. So, what's the point of making a new one if the old one was unsuccessful?


Hey, don't be discouraged by those random words of mine. That's is just what I felt. If you do have one - go, do it!

I just don't really feel the new year aura - I'm away from home, perhaps? Not sure, hopefully that would be the main reasons.

Previous years, I've always looking forward what to do on the new year's eve. This time, I don't know why but I've been thinking of doing something more religious like rosary prayer. ( doesn't it seem funny hearing something like this from me? hoho. yes. I feel funny myself.) I just want to be grateful for what everything the Lord has given me and  I want to start this new year with a good one. ( What good? saya pn x tau! haha)

Dear 2012, will you be good to me? I prayed that I'd be given the strength and courage to do the very best of my ability as a final year student, be able to graduate in time and working! Amen!Halleluya!

saya curi dr tumblr ni. haha!

Good bye 2011, Hello 2012!
Happy New Year everyone! Have a great one!Oh, almost forgot. Please accept my sincere apology if I ever did hurt you guys, whether I'm aware of it or not, purposely or not, I truly apologize. May God shower you guys with His abundant blessings on this coming new year! Amen.

Take care. Be safe. Au revoir. :)

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

christmas with them ♥

Ho Ho Ho. Merry - Merry Christmas! Praise the Lord! * still christmas ba kan??hee*

Once again, this year 2011, my christmas - being away from my family in Sabah. :(

But, worry not.. I have my own family here. *Thanks a lot guys - you rock!* :)

It might be slightly different celebrating christmas without real family around , but hey - I still had fun! Ho Ho!

What makes it different celebrating christmas away from family, comparing to last year celebration (sbb last year pn away juga!), for this year..

Firstly, did I mentioned that actually I was like given the opportunity to sing psalms on Christmas Day mass? Ho Ho Ho. I did! It feels great to be able to serve the Lord in this special day.

Secondly, meeting and knowing new people. That's awesome! - then being invited to their open house. haha!

Thirdly, christmas gifts! haha.
christmas gift fr Abner.! and the koala bear is actually fr my supervisor thanx. haha!:)

My christmas day with them was just a simple one but yet, it was meaningful. You may find sight-seeing, lepak-ing  in the shopping mall and bowling maybe boring and lame, but it's with them. So, for me, it's not!

Well, it's not where or how you spend christmas is, it's the people you spend with. :)

pretty sumandaks! hoho

 with Lily! the bear that I thought was a bottle at first. haha~

That's the inside story for my christmas this year! 

New Year is coming soon. New Year's resolution, anyone?? I haven't think of it. Ho Ho.

*current mode: study week - but so relax one!.haha*

Saturday, December 24, 2011

pre- christmas!

First of all, Thank God! Praise the Lord! Amen!

I've finished the hardest part for this sem! ( I would called them hardest part though!)

This week - 2 VIVA clinical exam in a row., neuromedical + geri.. Although I'm not really satisfied with my geri VIVA performance and I didn't get to see the smart- looking Dr, I'm grateful because I've tried my best.

and thesis chap 1- 3, submitted! so, finally, a little bit of oxygen for me to breathe. hoho!

Still remember what I want for my christmas gift this year? haha!

a dream came true! surprise christmas gift from roomies!:)

actually, it comes with another gift :
a red stocking, a basket and a card!:)

I was deeply touched by these gifts and I did cried.( mo cakap sy manja la tu kn? x kesah! hoho). I had never expected to receive a christmas gift this year.  I was going to buy the bola2 on my own actually. haha! never thought that I would really get them as my christmas gift. Thanks a lot roomies - Lin & Aziella. Love u guys! :)

So, today, after all the hardships, (kunun la!).. Lily and I thought of going for christmas shopping. Gosh! this was among the not-so-good experience while shopping. teda hasil pn! We've been to every shops but none of them attracts us. how pity :(

This though- trigger  me missing home badly. huhu! * just a little bit more, Winnie*

Dear Lord, I pray for your blessings on this special day of Christmas.My loved ones - family members and friends, far or near , may they receive your abundant blessings. I pray to you Lord that they may be given the best health and in what everything they do. Amen.

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Christmas gift

I want something like this for my christmas this year. Anyone??

hoho. :)

Fa la la la la la la la !~

be merry! christmas season is around the corner!  :)

Saturday, December 17, 2011

.reminiscing you.

hmm, so true kan? because, sometimes I still feel this. . heish3.!

take care dear first love! I wish you many - many happiness and wonders in your life.! :)

Sunday, December 11, 2011


worrying is using your imagination to create thing you don't want - anonymous

yes, indeed. worrying is just an imagination. but currently, that is how I feel. I am worrying over my thesis and VIVA clinical exam.

I am worried that I wouldn't be able to meet the deadline for submitting the thesis chapters and I am worried that I wouldn't be able to prepare myself for the upcoming VIVA.

hm. :(

But, anyhow I am hoping that everything would turn out fine. Amen.

Thursday, December 8, 2011

11 weeks - o.v.e.r!!


That picture above, is just for your pleasure viewing. But then, is it pleasurable enough?? haha~  well, the inside story goes like this actually :

We were doing a domestic activity for our patient the other week. The menu for that day was scorn. (dunno what a scone is? google is available. ) Not really sure where was the exact wrong part or etc, the scone didn't really taste and look like a scone. See the picture-lah! hoho~ Pity the aunty lah ! ( patient). She didn't even get to taste the scorn. hmm. 

It has been 11 weeks already. Mark the day, weeks and months that my clinical placement for this semester, is OVER. First of all, thank God . Thank you for everything. I am very grateful for all your wonderful blessings and guidance during this time. My family, friends, who have always been very supportive to me through all this posting time and of course all the therapists and staffs of Occupational Therapy Department HKL and all the other ward that I've visited, especially Geriatric Ward NW16 ( perlu ka mention number ward??? mcm la urg tau. hahaha!)

Well, this 11 weeks, I've been through a lot, learnt a lot, met new people and make new friends. This was such an amazing experience for me that I will never forget. Meeting all kinds of people, dealing with different characters, doing things that I've never expected - the feelings is indescribable though! :)

Doing Neurology in the first months, and I found out that neuro cases are not only about stroke or TBI. (  see how naive I am thinking that neuro is only for stroke and TBI ~ haha!)

The second months, doing medical.  During this placement, I am confronted with some  fussy caregiver. But this situation, taught me to be much more patient. Try to always be in their shoes, be empathy. Then, I will know what it's like to be in their situation.

The last three weeks of clinical placement, I'm doing on geriatric area. Frankly saying, I enjoyed watching these folks especially when some of them are really cute. cute - comel! hoho. But seriously, I can't help myself watching every move they make, the facial expressions they have. . I think old folks are adorable. Not like those teddy bear or baby type of adorable, but they're just adorable.

The difference in dealing with old folks people and the others is how you treat them. Sure, all of us know that they might get a bit sensitive some time and  needs more attention but that's them. This three weeks, taught me a lot on old folks people. I also got the chance to bath one of them ! ( this is the unexpected event. hoho!).   At first , I was reluctant, but when I think back, " hey, opportunities don't always come, so why not?". So, imagine la. me , unfortunately with my baju kurung on that day, bathing a patient. haha!

And to make it more interesting, there was a smart looking Dr there! just came for attachment. hohoo! (kenapa la datang time saya final week sda Dr?? xda la chance mo tingu lama2!hahaha!) 

The real fun here was, he is from Sabah. Well, it started like this..

 He was wearing a name tag and a name card. But since the name card is too small, I can't read the name, IC no and post. I only got to see the name. Okay, I see the name.haha!

Then, I saw one form  with his signature and cop la. The cop is written - PAKAR PERUBATAN HOSPITAL QUEEN ELIZABETH. I was like - OMG! ni Dr urang  Sabah ka pla???? 

On one situation, while doing a ward round, we were standing opposite to each other. Then, this time around, I saw his name card. Quite clear. I saw the IC no la. (x ble blah!)  I saw the number 12 on the IC. OK, sah dia urang Sabah juga! hahaha!.

What makes it more funnier, he was also looking at my name card. (p/s : I can see the eye okay! even my friend pun notice). Suddenly, he walks towards me. 

Long story short, he is offering me to be part of his team back in Sabah because he will be opening a Geriatric Dept soon. Wah, Winnifred! hahaha!. But, Dr, I'm still a student. ( I bet , he thought I am doing attachment also)

hmm. ada harapan lagi ka ni jumpa DR good looking ni?? hahah!

Okay, enough with the Dr part. Overall, I'm glad that I finished this posting.  Next - thesis, VIVA and final exam.


Sunday, November 20, 2011

a heart - waver

hello everyone! here I am again. Suddenly, in the mood of exposing the inside story episode for today .


Ever experience a heart-waver?

waver - undecided over something

root word is wave - sudden occurrence or increase in feelings or emotion

well, honestly saying, I myself did experience this. Okay, when I think back again, this heart-waver-situations happens almost frequently, aite?

It's like when you have decided something, suddenly feel like, "ooh... arghhh.." and bla.. bla.. bla..


but for this episode, the heart-waver situation is a little bit different. (okay, think hard! haha!)

I'm currently in a so-called-Alice Wonderland world which my head is full with "What if " thoughts..

What if suddenly my heart, wave for this something ... ? hmm.

Saturday, November 19, 2011

random-lah sangat!

I finally got the answer after a long wait! phew! frankly saying, I was mad + frustrated once I knew it. So, don't blame me if I act a little bit differently than before. But, worry not, I'll get  over it soon enough. Eh, I already did! hehe! I just thought that it may be easier and much better if things were told directly to me. terus terang seja la, kan?

okay, enough with that! 

It's been two months already, doing my clinical posting. Yeay! another 3 more weeks to go! Yippee! I am soooo looking forward to the end of posting.

It's not that I don't enjoy doing my clinical placement, it's just that , I miss waking up late in the morning. ohemjih!. hohoho. Two days weekend seems not enough for me to wake up late. haha!

2011 has almost come to its end and frankly saying right now, I sooo miss my home town, and of course my loved ones back there. = (

happy weekend everyone! have a good one.! :)

Thursday, November 3, 2011

hidden dream

It's 11.54 pm - according to my lappy's clock. I'm still not sleepy but not in the mood to continue doing any academic stuffs. phew!~

*I bet you guys should be wondering why am I so damn free scribbling on my inside story wall , aite? - I'm on a 1 week unexpected holidays, yeay!*

Well, my story of hidden dream started like this : - jadilah beruang bersama saya @ pls bear with me.hoho!-

I don't have that superb + amazing + powerful  voice like Charice or Siti Nurhaliza but I can and love singing.! I used to represent my school few years back and unexpectedly, I won. ohemjih! Thanks Lord and to all who supported me back then.

I can spend hours and hours of singing (in a karaoke box! hoho) and not get tired with it. For you guys who did ever join me or I join you guys for karaoke, you should know then. :)

I don't really have a specific genre or type of songs that I like or loves to listen to. It's more like a chemistry actually - falling in love at the first sight; First time hearing then falling for it.

Once I fall for it, I'd go and search for this song ( download or etc) and play it over and over again until I hafal  already the lyric. gosh! :)

One thing special is that, whenever I listen to songs especially  from Geisha (Indonesian band) and Taylor Swift - I'd imagine myself on stage, singing live with the band behind me. Awesome kann??? hohoho.

So, the hidden dream here is that, I pictured myself singing in a band. Lead singer la konon. hoho!

I don't know how to play guitar, but I'm interested to learn. But, not sure if I still got the time to do that. huh!

So, anyone of you guys interested to form a band with me? hoho!

Selena Gomez and The Scene : gambar adalah hiasan semata-mata.hoho:)

Monday, October 31, 2011

The Journey Alone.!

Saya memang suda laaaaaamaaaa ni mo pigi tingu wayang. Tapi, ada saja aral melintang. Fuhh!~

Then, one of my friend ni, dia cakap " pigi tingu real steel". siok o. ni la 1st time saya bla bla bla... ". begitu la yang si kawan tu bilang.

Jadi, saya pun apa lagi kan. Plan la ni mo pigi tingu itu muvie sama housemate.Sekali kunun, suda pula dorang pigi tingu time Friday punya break (kan Friday punya lunch break lama sikit). Jadi saya pun kempunan la menonton ini muvie.

Itu yang 2 weeks before la. Desire mo tingu muvie masi kuat ni. Tapi, teda kawan mo p tingu and teda masa. *kunun la*

So, ini hari, since saya free and blur2 ( will be continued for the whole week. duh!) saya pun cuci2 mata la web GSC. nah.! ko tingu. ko tingu apa saya nampak!

ni la muvie 1st yang saya tingu secara solo!:)

Ini la yang saya nampak. Search la dulu kunun ni di GSC. ala, suma petang or malam. X la mau kalau lambat sangat kan. Saya pun search di TGV. Adaaaaaaa! Jam 12.10 punya show. Time saya tingu ni jam 10.49 am. Apa lagi, belari2 la ni kc siap2 diri + lunch siap2 dari rumah.

Mula2 tu plan la macam ni. lepas siap tingu ni muvie, lari pigi TS la. sambung tingu Real Steel. Skali tingu, mana kan ada begitu, x larat sd meningu another muvie. Apa kan lagi kalau solo2 + lowong2 kan. hoho. Tp ada juga la pigi TS. Mo mencari wedges kunu,tapi teda yang menarik hati. *aiseh!*

Ni muvie comedy. Walaupun, tidak banyak saya ketawa2, tapi saya enjoy la tingu ni muvie. Sweet la ni Chris Evans. Yeah! Mo kasi jadi buipren suda dia ni. hoho.!

ni la c Chris Evans. Chhooooooomeeel kannn! plus encem.! hohoho.

Uish. Kalau ada yang mo pigi tingu lagi , saya maaaaauuuuu ja pigi tingu. 2nd round pun buli.!
*happy mode*

Sunday, October 30, 2011

Sun - Day!!

oh, it's Sunday! hoho. FYI, I went aerobic this morning. awesome feeling! let's do that again next week. heee~

went through a friend's tumblr and get inspired by those pictures. So , let me share some of them here .

enjoy! ;)

Friday, October 28, 2011

confession of a broken heart. *erk??*

I used to be fond of Lindsay Lohan and to be honest with you guys, deep down inside, I still do. *laugh*
Confession of a broken heart is one of her songs actually.  I miss listening to her! ( I bought her first album and I have no idea where did I put it. hmm~)

Actually, I have no idea what to write on this entri. I just feel the urge to spill out some things which I still haven't figured out yet.

Okay, done thinking! :)

After series of  'neglect' incidents, I tend to not put hope nor high expectation on something. I know, it sounded weird and lame but it's just like a protective / defensive mechanism I have. In short, afraid of the outcomes.

I've been through those moments when I put my hope so much but it turns out to be not the way I wanted - it hurts and take some times for me to move on. I kinda, feeling tired and to be exact, not to expect again because I don't want to go through the same old path again.

But I did once again. This time, not that bad compare to the previous incidents ( previous incidents - still hurt a bit but it's okay). Plus, I've prepared myself a bit. :)

It's a little bit different this time. At first I wasn't expecting anything, but from my point of view, this so-called -thing always gives a positive response, so I was like maybe, I could count on this one. But, no. It's been a year and nothing changes. I always thought that there was something special, but it isn't. It's frustrating actually. I've been dropping so many hints and yet still left hanging.

I am done waiting. I have done enough. I will no longer held up my expectation for you, so-called-thing. Dear Lord, give me courage and stronger heart to deal with this. Amen.

Friday, October 21, 2011

it's friday!

yeay! it's friday. my favourite day of the week because, I got the day off! weeehuu!

FYI, it's been a month , doing my clinical posting in neuro! yeah, I did learn a lot and found out recently that I'm not really into stroke. huhu :(. Not to say that I hate stroke people or what, but I kinda blur when it comes to this. Hopefully I grow love on stroke. Amen.! But still, I learnt a a lot. If before this, when it comes to neuro, I only think of stroke and TBI, but actually there's a lot more. One month in neuro, I've seen cases like multiple sclerosis, guillain-barre syndrome, chronic inlammatory demyelinating polyneuropathy (which was my case study!interesting!) and I think much more but forget the others. (astaga! hoho)

I was in a terrible headache last night. Don't know why :(. I've tried distracting myself by doing other things but it's still hurts. Feels like pricking, throbbing and of course , terrible. I've swallowed paracetamol and still feeling the same. Trying to sleep on it but ended up tossing and turning on the bed. huhu.:( At last, I decided to just force myself to sleep and thanks God, finally I was asleep.

Feel much better then after that. :)

Few days before, I feel like talking to someone. Just a chit chat maybe. Honestly telling, my phone is really in a 'bobou' condition right now. haha! it may seems frustrating sometimes but in the end I find it funny. :)))  People may find it hard to believe when I say my phone is 'bobou' - like, seriously, this is what I'm in now. 

Never mind, I'm still alive. hoho!

You didn't miss me at all? hmm. Ok then. :(

Happy weekend everyone. Have a nice one! :)

Saturday, October 15, 2011

lonely and bored weekend.

it's saturday nite!  I am looking forward pn to every weekend. but this weekend feels a little bit lonely and bored although my day was fully occupied today. phew!

morning till afternoon - interaction day
afternoon till evening - outing
evening - sunset mass

now, a little bit free. but free2 pn felt bored and lonely. aaarh. what to do? :(

Thursday, October 13, 2011

The Best Moments In Life ♥

I was going through the stuffs in my room today and found out this laminated red + yellow paper ;


1. Falling in love.

2. Laughing till your stomach hurts.

3. Enjoying a ride down the country side.

4. Listening to your favorite song on the radio.

5. Going to sleep, listening to the rain pouring outside.

6. Getting out of the shower and wrapping yourself with a warm, fuzzy towel.

7. Passing your final exams with good grades.

8. Being part of an interesting conversation.

9. Finding some money in some old pants.

10. Laughing at yourself.

11. Sharing a wonderful dinner with all your friends.

12. Laughing without a reason.

13. "Accidentally" hearing someone say something good about you.

14. Watching the sunset.

15. Listening to a song that that reminds you of an important person in your life.

16. Receiving or giving your first kiss.

17. Feeling this movement in your body when seeing this "special" someone.

18. Having a great time with your friends.

19. Seeing the one you love happy.

20. Wearing the shirt of a person you love and smelling his / her perfume.

21. Visiting an old friend of yours and remembering great memories.

22. Hearing someone telling you " I LOVE YOU"

 Have a wonderful day guys! (^_~)


aaaaaaah! felt so much better. One presentation is done already. *Thank God!*

It's the 3rd week of posting already! wah! time do fly fast eh. Soon, it'll be 3 months sda. looking forward though. hehe.!

I didnt get enough rest for this week, I think. It' because, I'm busy preparing for my case study presentation. Once again, thank God, it's over. But, there are 2 more comings. Hopefully, the other 2 would be much better . Amen. 

Okay, off for some work to do.! have a fun weekend everyone. :)

Monday, October 10, 2011

entri bersahaja.

walaupun bz bt case study, but I suddenly feel the urge to spill out some things. hoho.

first of all, i've dropped too many hints, and yet you don't get it or maybe you're not interested. never mind then. i won't disturb you. ( i try la ye. heeeee~)

ok. off now. case study mode. :)

Saturday, October 8, 2011

posting lagi! ;)

Hullo peeps!

* jam menunjukkan few minutes after 12 already and here I am, still wide awake. ( sbb td ptg sda tidur! hoho)

It's been about 2 weeks - la, I think, haven't scribbling into this inside story of mine. *my apology, guys*

Currently, I'm doing my clinical posting. Once again, in HKL. I guess, I was fated to be with HKL. hoho!For this time, I'll be doing neurology, medical and geriatric areas. So, overall, it would take about 11 weeks with 3-4 weeks for each area.

First four weeks, I'm doing my clinical placement on neurology area, 2 weeks in patient and the other 2 weeks out patient.

Overall I conclude, for this 2 weeks neuro in patient, I learnt a lot. ( except for the splinting part - still lacking the skills).

Neurology is something related to our  nerves and nervous system, either the brain or spinal cord. So, mostly, during this 2 weeks, I've seen so many cases with traumatic brain injury, stroke, brain or spinal cord tumor and disease related with nerves. Awesome experience! ;)

I'm sure all of you knows that this nerves and nervous system is the plays important role (role? hoho) in our body especially the brain, who controls everything. So, you see, your head aka your brain is the most precious asset in your body. :)

It's kinda heart throbbing seeing all the patients who were previously soo healthy, suddenly lying vegetative on the bed.. some were unconscious with all the wires attached to their body. :(

Just to share some tips here , just in case you have your family members or friends who has been through this kinda situation, especially yang unconscious ( sorry, bukan mo minta2 this things happens to our loved ones, but always be prepared -lah!).

Let's just say, it's a he. Just because, he is unconscious, doesn't mean that he can't feel or hear his surroundings. Family members or friends should always give stimulation to him. For example like, talk to him. Tell him where is he now, what the day is it now. In short, orientate him. Share with him everything, how's your day has been or maybe moments that you've shared together.

Let him listen to his favourite songs ( but not for too long la, nti tmbh confuse orang.hihi) or maybe let him sniff his perfume or something that he's used too.

Besides that, moves his limbs. This will also stimulate him and of course to prevent these limbs from becoming stiff that will lead to contracture. Translation - kasi exercise la tangan2 n kaki2 dia, kc guyang2 spy x karas.

Got this one patient.  Early symptoms, fatigue, dizziness - something like that lah. Found out that actually, he was diagnosed with meningitis.Seeing his condition now, I just couldn't believe that he used to be such a healthy person. 

Then, it strikes me right  in the heart. We, the allied health team, always deal with so many types of patient. So, the risk of being infected is also high. (For the patient, I don't know what is the underlying causes). Suddenly, I felt so nervous now that I'm having this mucus in my nose.I have this silly thoughts running on my mind. (shhhhuuuhh, palis2.) 

Dear colleagues, be extra careful while dealing and handling patients. Wear gloves, mask or apron if you need to and the most important one is, don't forget to WASH YOUR HANDS!

Mr Brain : Take a good care of me! :)

So friends, be careful on what everything you do. Take a good care of yourself. Hope you guys have a nice days! :)

cheers! XOXO.

Friday, September 30, 2011

gifts within a week.! ♥♥

my 22nd birthday gifts !

It's been a week since my 22nd birthday. and look what I've got! card, teddy bears, little bag, hand phone casing, cakes!

pinky hand phone casing, winnie the pooh little bag and the little cutie bear (which lin thought was a kambing. hoho!) was sent by my mom through courier and I just received them today. Love them! thanks Mummy! XOXO!

birthday card from my coursemates! OT/4 you guys rocks!!!

the pinky bear, thank you maz!

this was the most wonderful birthday ever! thanks a lot guys. love ya!

gifts fr my thesis supervisor.tq dr!:)

got so many gifts within a week. wow! hehe. guess that luck is really on my side this week.XOXO.

*been through a week of posting in HKL doing neurology. hopefully next week will be able to get a case study. amen*

Saturday, September 24, 2011

my cupcake birthday! ;)

current mode : just finished lifting, carrying, and moving heavy books and stuffs. damn tired!~

surprise birthday cupcake! thanx to roomies - lin and aa.;)

As I've mentioned before, I'm extremely tired as I have just finished lifting, carrying and moving my things and stuffs to the new house. The distance - faaaaarrrr. 

I opened my locker once I finished taking bath, and see what I found inside?? those cute little cupcakes! OMG... sooooooooo cute. My roomies surprised me with the cupcakes...  I felt like crying.. terharu la knun.. but anyway, thanx a lot my dear roomies! 

This two weeks had been the busiest days of my life. I still remember that it is my birthday this 24th Sept but with all the things happened, I kinda  feel nothing, as if the day is like any other usual day.

I admit, I've been looking forward to this day.. since august! and now that the day is a few hours ago, I still feel nothing. huhu. pity me.

First and foremost, thank you Dear Lord, for You have given me another chance to live in this world, for all the family and friends around me and above all, your blessings . Thank You Lord!

Secondly, thanks Mummy! thanks Didie!.. I am a Cesarean baby, so you see how difficult it is for my mummy to have given birth to me. I was born two weeks earlier than the due expected and once I was born, I'm only 2.2 kg, even my nail hasn't grow yet! and look at my size now, no one would ever thought that I was just a small little baby before this.hoho! Didie, who try to fulfill every wishes that I had especially that I am the only girl in the family. Once again, thanks mummy and didie! I love you both! mmmwaaaahs*

Next, my so-called- bodyguards at home, abang, ronn & adik! hoho! thanks guys! you rock my world. special thanks then to my  big bro, for the advance birthday gift - a colorful Swatch! :)

My Sumandakz! thank you pretty sumandakz! sooo sorry that I won't be able to hang out with you guys on my birthday, still got unsettled things here. huhu. 

My roomies , of course- for the surprises. hehe. .

Friends from far and near, whom I cant mentioned all here, thank you all. For all the wishes and supports you have given . I appreciate them all. May God shower you guys with abundant blessings! Amen.:)

Birthday wishes for this year ; a boyfriend, a slimmer body, a fairer skin. 

hahahahahhahaha! funny wishes kan..??? OMG winnifred. Jgn la perasan sgt. hahahahaha/

Anyway, for this year, I just wish that I would be able to do the very best of my ability for my final year study . but then, if all the other 3 wishes are granted, apa salahnya. hohoo. :)

Happy Birthday to me! :)

Friday, September 16, 2011

How to Make A Girl Happy. :)

I saw this at FB and I think everyone need to know. General information ni.hoho.;)

1. Tell her she is beautiful

2. Hold her hand at any moment . . . even if its just for a second.

3. Hug her from behind

4. Leave her voice messages to wake up to.

5. Wrestle with her :)


7. If youre talking to another girl, when you're done talking, walk over and hug her and kiss her....let her know she's yours and they aren't.

8. Write her notes or call her just to say "hi"

9. Introduce her to your friends . . . as your girlfriend.

10. Play with her hair.

12. Get upset if another guy touches her and she doesn't like it

11. Pick her up (she loves it)

13. Make her laugh

14. Let her fall asleep in your arms.

15. If she's mad at you, kiss her.

16. If you care about her, then TELL HER

17. Every guy should give their girl 3 things: a stuffed animal (she'll hug it every time she goes to sleep), jewelry (she'll treasure it forever), and one of his t- shirts (she'll most likely wear it to bed) or sweatshirts sprayed with his cologne!! and flowers or something occasionally.

18. Treat her the same around your friends as you do when you're alone.

19. Look her in the eyes and smile.

20. Hang out with her on weekends

21.Kiss her in the rain (girls love this)

22.Kiss her just for the heck of it

23. If your listening to music, let her listen too.

24. Remember her birthday and get her something,even ifnits simple and inexpensive, it came from YOU. it means all the world to HER.

25. when she gives you a present on your birthday, Christmas, or just whenever, take it and tell her you love it, even if you don't (it'll make her happy.)

26. Always call her when you say you will, it may not seem like it, but it does hurt her and makes her think you don't care so call even if you can only talk for a minute.Girls don't necessarily have to have hour long conversations every night but its nice for us to hear your voice even for a quick hello.

27. Give her what she wants

28. Recognize the small things . . . they usually mean the most.

29.dont hug her friends or your friends that are girls cause she'll feel left out.

30.hang out with her whenever you are free and u should be free to hang wit your girl friend all the time..

31. Dont Lie to her..

32.If u care about her...SHOW her!

Talk and Share : Boys vs. Girls

You  guys might be wondering , why the title. Well, come with me, I'll explain them to you.

Before I go further, let me start with the things that makes me worried, frustrated and sad to almost- death.

Listing them down according to priority.

1/ residential college application ( wants to move out from the one I'm in now)
2/ thesis proposal ( draft : 19/9/11 , presentation : 22/9/11)
3/clinical posting ( starting this 26/9/11 and till the next 3 months)

Me and my friends been asking and calling the office several times, and met with the person in charge. But still, the exact timing of the result coming out is unknown.

I'm extremely and damn tired already being a nomad. Going here and there, always carrying two heavy bags. huhu. :(

Makes it worse, we've got to send our proposal draft this monday, which I haven't started yet. Doing this require internet connection. Need to search for journals and articles kan. But, then, our current residential college sekarang, no internet connection. So, need to nomad to K1, for free internet connection.

Thank God, I've got my clinical placement nearby. But still, I need to study and prepare myself before going posting. But, all my stuffs and books still in K1. With this nomad lifestyle, there's no way I can carry books around and be able to read them.

okie, that's the surface. Now, let me explain the real thing about the title.

It's normal that whenever we feel down, stress, frustrated or even happy, we tend to share them with our friends or loved ones. Well, same goes for me, with all the things happen in such a short time, I tend to go and talk and share with my friends. To be exact - girl friends.

Yesterday, after meeting the person in charged and knowing about the result that still unsure yet, I suddenly felt so hopeless, speechless and don't know what to do and even think. I felt like crying but the tears won't come out. I think you guys know what it feels like, you wanted to cry  but can't, and all stuck up in your chest.

I suddenly feel the urge to spill out what I felt inside to a person. But not just a random person. And of course, not a girl friends.

Because you see, I've shared everything to my girl friends here ( who's having the same problem) and now, I wanted to search for someone out of the circles I'm in now. ( circles - yang bukan org UKM)

Frankly speaking, I wanted to talk to a boy. I don't know if you realize this, but talking to a boy and girl about  the same matter is soo different. Not that I wanted to discriminate either one, but at one time, you'll need to talk to them - boys.

At this point of frustration and sadness, all I want is to turn to that someone ( which I don't know who, in my case. For others, maybe their boyfriend), I just want to talk and share what I've been through and felt to him. I don't care if he won't say anything but the very least he can do is listen to me. And it would be an advantage , if he offers words of encouragement and support or saying "It's okay, everything will be fine". 

A "no - no" if he says the other way round, meaning like, " I told you so " or etc. Those short phrases may hurt a lot especially when it comes to this special person talking.

See, the power that this special person holds on you. It's either a he or she, they can destroy you or makes you the happiest person in the world in just a second!

I don't have that special someone or boyfriend at the moment. So, I don't know who to turn to. Somehow, at this point, I felt so pity for myself. Not that , my previous bf symptoms is back but  I just wish that I have the special person to turn to at times like this.

I start scrolling for my phone contacts but I don't know who is that person that I wanted to talk too.

At last, I sms my  bff - a boy. But after a few messages, he went missing. : ( This the other thing that I soo don't like. Another down moment here.
I did try sms another one ( this one is not a bff,kinda have a crush on him a bit. hoho). But he went missing even before I started to spill out things. I tried again, sms-ing him at night, and that if he free, I wanted to just have a chat with him, but once again I was ignored.
damn frustrated again. :(

Thanks to my roomies, after doing a little bit of silly things, I felt much better.

Later at night, the boy- bff that went missing at the day called me.  Thanks,you! It was a relief to be able to have a chat with you. Thanks for making me laugh. At ones, I felt the burden became less heavier. Thanks kawan.

pls end soon. this frustrated things. Amen.

A 'Nomad' Life

Nomad is in Malay term. I'm not quite sure what is the term in english though. Never mind. 

Nomad - check your history classes way back when you were or maybe still in secondary school. Sure you guys have heard of this term. But then, just in case you haven't heard of this nomad term, let me  explain it briefly for you.

 Nomad - kehidupan berpindah randah. English translation - fikir sendiri la! haha.

It's been a week now , here in KL since my arriving from Sabah last weekend. * still homesick*

For this semester, mostly, me and my course mates were given the outside residential college. But , some of us got the NOT SO GOOD one.! huhu. :(

Upon arriving at the room, looks soooo old, dusty. The only best thing is that, our room got our own bathroom / toilet. but then, NO WATER! and the toilet looks so damn creepy. I bet we can make a haunted / horror toilet movie in it. astaga. !

Me and my room mate went exploring the whole house Got another bathroom. Oh damn! looks dirty and creepy too. Water resources, ada. TAPI, so little that I'm not even sure if it is enough for the whole house.  
( Our house got 7 person - so, imagine, sharing one bathroom with soo little water. huhu)

Sorry to say this. and I don't care what ever thoughts you have of me. Although at the age of almost 22           ( hehe) , I cried seeing the condition of the room. Not to say that I'm manja , but then, the room looks so frustrating. huhu. :(

Glad that me  and my roomies tu memang satu kepala, starting from that first night, we decided to go and stay at our other friend's house - Plaza RAH, which is faaaaaarrrr beyond comfortable than this one. 

Then, this is the starting of our nomad life. Everyday like that. 

 Hopefully the rayuan result will come out asap. Praying for it. Amen.

Monday, September 5, 2011

Farewell Sabah , I'll be missing you!

I am sad! huhu.
Today is Monday, 5th of Sept 2011. This is the final week I've got here in Sabah. : (

Uwaaaa!! I don't want this holiday to end. I don't want to go back yet.

This semester's was the longest holiday I've ever had. From May to Sept -  around 4 to 5 months la! Minus one month for the Industrial Training and still left, sooooo many months (hehe!) to be in holidays mood, aite?!

And since I only have my part time during the weekends, and the weekdays spent at dearest home sweet home.. oh., splendid! hoho! best hols ever. ! haha.

I can't deny that there were times that I'm  feeling bored to death . Doing the same routines almost everyday - wake up, laundry , sweeping, cleaning the house, cooking n bla bla bla.. hoho! Never mind, I take that as an additional classes to polish my skills for a future housewife post. haha! (a total euw kan? hoho)

Although I've been mentally ( I think ) and physically prepared for my going back to KL trip - which I've started packing some of my clothes a few weeks ago and now started searching and washing for other stuffs that I need to bring, but my dearly little heart hasn't prepared for it yet. : (

I wish I could stay home a little bit longer. And since some of my friends has finished their study and will be graduating soon, it feels much worser. I now wish that I've finished my study and then, can sit goyang kaki at home while waiting for the convocation day.  huh! 

What makes it  funnier  is, I even pictured myself  (in a new transformation) with a slimmer body and a shorter hair. The image that I would display once I got a job. ( kunun. astaga!)

Oh no! Time do flies fast. I can't believe that I'm going back to campus again. It's not that I don't miss what I have there, but I've grew attachment staying here, at home, Sabah. huhu. :(

Since I'll be entering my final year this coming semester, this is another thing that makes me feel uneasy, nervous and butterfly in the stomach ? hoho ( sorry, I don't really quite remember idioms these days like I did when  I was in school days! )

I'm afraid that I won't be able to handle the stresses from the thesis, clinical posting, case study, presentation and maybe etc. Who knows? I just have this thought that, final year would be a very tiring, stressful and busiest time I will ever had. In short, it looks ugly for me. ;(

I'm not quite sure for myself if I'm able to handle all the upcoming circumstances later on. But, anyhow I just hope and prat that everything will go fine and a success! * Amen*

Heart is still in a holiday mood. ;(

*Dear Lord, shower me with your blessings that I may have my safe journey back to my campus. I pray that I'll be given the strength, courage and motivation to face my final year and to be able to do the very best of my ability. Amen *

Farewell then Sabah, I'm 201 % sure I'll be missing you. See you again next year. !

cheers. XOXO (^_~)

Friday, September 2, 2011

holiday - last part.

First thing first - Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri and Happy Independence Day !

Again, my apology. For not being able to update my blog to the very latest stuff or activities that I'm in too.

Oh, just to let you guys know, I only have about 1 week ++ before flying back to KL. : ( *sigh*

How I wish this holiday could stay longer. (hoi! suda2 la cuti tu. dr bulan 5 lg ko cuti. hoho!)

So, this entry, would be the last one , for my holiday story - lah!

I have been very lucky + fortunate recently. It's like a dream come true! hoho. *Thank You Lord*

I'm not sure if you guys had seen my previous post in fb ( which, I don't quite remember when did I post it - last year maybe). I posted about the desire to have a Swatch watch and a Nose heels. I think!  hoho. and today, I mean a few days ago.. I got a Swatch! ohemjih! betul2 dream 

come true punya kan.

A million thanks then to my brother . He bought it for me - birthday gift in advance! hoho.

my pinky colourful swatch!!

Oh then. another gift that I got was from my aunt. She went to Spain for the World Youth Day and look what she got for me. : )
 earrings! love them!
Actually, she got me another one. A red rosary beads, which I totally forgot to take picture of it. Nevermind then!

Since holiday has almost come to its end, I've quit my part time job - mo menghabiskan sisa- sisa cuti kunun! I'll be missing those kids, although they were quite naughty. This has been one of the most wonderful experience I had.
with some of the kids - the other, absent!


Another Fb- post mentioned here. This one was quite new la. A few days ago about getting a hair cut or not. Blame my eyes. hoho! this is because, I've seen my friend with her hair shorter, so saya pun mau2 mcm tu. But then, I'm in dilemma. Afraid that, if I cut it short, I might regret them later.

At last, another episode of hair rebonding. haha!

p/s: sorry. no picture available for this one. hoho. I still look the same, only with the straight and flat hair. hoho.

It's Raya Season now and most of it, I mean Raya 1st till the 3rd day, fully occupied with the invitation.
Sure I've gained weight because I won't stop eating. *habes la*

and then, Sumandakz Reunion. -fantabulous!-

Feels good to be able to catch up with them. hoho. :)

This holidays had been amazingly great for me . I learn and been through a lot, met new people and be friends with them as well as catching up with old friends. Thank God, for another seconds of being able to breathe and enjoy this creation of Yours. Amen!

I'll stop here then. Till then, take a good care of yourself and  do appreciate every moment you have. Have a joyous and enjoyable time with your loved ones.

cheers. xoxo. !

Sunday, August 14, 2011

stopping by!

hSunny Sunday! Hooott! oh before that, I hope that you guys have a blessed and pleasant weekend with your loved ones. :)

Unexpected and shocking thing happen recently.

*Dearest Uncle, I prayed to God that may your soul rest in peace. May the family that you left behind, especially my aunt and cousins , be given the strength to live their life. Amen *

I was so damn sick recently, especially after the funeral. A very bad flu + cough. I'm so sleepy but I  couldn't sleep as it is so hard for me to breath. I ain't sure if I have an asthma, but so far, I think  ,I don't. 

Sudah jatuh ditimpa tangga, dihempap pasu lagi. hoho! Still in a very bad condition, I mean the flu, I got stung by a bee la pla. Oh. Perfect!
Praise the Lord, I'm feeling much better now except for the cough - sikit la. :)
My thesis title changed again. *sigh*. I've been reading a lot for the previous title and then.. Never mind, my supervisor told me that this new title is much simpler. I hope so, thank you Dr.! :)
Time flies so fast. It's the month of August already. and now it's the fasting month. Happy Fasting to all the Muslim's. ( I bet , it's not too late right? hehe)..

Ms. Tiara,! You're 21! hoho. anyway, I'm wishing you all the best in life and may all your wishes come true. love ya! :))

Okeh! enough for the stop by! I was planning on going to watch a movie today. hopefully jadi la. :)

Thursday, July 28, 2011

P stands for ?

P stands for? perempuan cantik, pintar. . haha! P stands for Percubaan!

Last night, my dad was asking me this question , "Nak, kabarani ko drive siso moi lo KK ka? " (it's in dusun actually, but you may spot some grammar error . hoho!) 

Then, I was like blur for a while. ( Usually, I have my mum sitting on the passenger seat whenever I'm driving outside Tuaran - meaning to say, never been alone . )

But  since the other moving object a.k.a kembara is still in the workshop, so there's only left Mr Kancil to move around.. and now that everyone at home own a driving license ( 4 person vs 1 car), so each and everyone of us need to be considerate, being tolerate and sharing - lah! Surely, we don't have the same thing, I mean the same function that we need  to attend.. either one of us stayed at home or take a bus la.! hoho, how pity is the situation kan?? 

Never mind, sharing is caring. Might as well save some gas since only one car left. hoho!

Tidak pun, wait till I won the lottery ticket, I'd buy a Honda Jazz!hoho. ( FYI, Honda Jazz is my fav car . *hmm. beli numbur pun x pernah, apa kan lagi mo harap menang. duh!*)

My dad was having a meeting today. But, at the same time, my mum was going  to school. So, today, I was their driver. We sent my dad first and then my mum. Once my dad finish his meeting, I picked him up.

The alone part was, when I was driving back to the city to pick my dad. Once again, ALONE and FIRST TIME. Thanks God, I reached there and get back home safely. :)

These are some easy  principles or things that I always hold on to when I'm driving ;

oh! before starting any journey, don't forget to PRAY. 

1- Firstly, be BRAVE and COURAGEOUS. Without them, you couldn't even move the car outside of the house.

2- Secondly,be EXTRA CAREFUL and ALERT.

3- Last but not least, make sure YOU DON'T HIT PEOPLE'S CAR or THEY HIT YOU. 

Just chill and relax. hoho! I applied these la kalau saya, but then, up to you guys la . mana- mana yang kmurg rasa comfortable and selamat time driving.

And then, I got another driving lesson today. Driving lesson with a P! haha. Since,  I'm not familiar with the KK routes, my dad decided to give me a some kind of  like "you-drive wherever you want to- and- I- show - you - the- way " driving lessons. haha! interesting right? besa la klu budak baru belajar jalan2 KK ni, dua kali ba salah masuk lane. hoho! it's okay, practices makes perfect. :)

okeh.! mari kita mencuci mata.

coke! for a late lunch!

this was my lunch. I had no  appetite eating rice. so I took this!

okey! enough for tonight. seeing the picture makes me hungry. tapun. :(