Sunday, October 29, 2017

Disappointment

I was in the church whatsapp group. So, somebody posted about that particular day readings and reflection. These words caught my eyes.

"Kalau kekecewaan kita kerana kita merasa dan sedar bahawa sikap dan perilaku kita tidak sesuai dengan apa yang diharapkan Allah, kita harus berjuang terus untuk memperbaiki diri kita. Kita harus kembali kepada Tuhan kerana Tuhan sendirilah yang mampu menguatkan kita untuk sampai kepada akhir perjuangan dan perjalanan hidup kita."

Translation:

If our disappointments is because we felt like our actions do not match with what God wants, we should fight to be a better version of our self.  We should come back to God because only He can strengthen us till the end of our life journey.

Sorry for the direct translation. Not that expert 'though.

Firstly, I'm not that religious or holier. Attending mass every Sunday doesn't make me one but I do accept Jesus as my savior; and this tiny faith of mine had kept me going for years.

I believe that each of us, I mean being Christian - we do face challenges in our faith, and it comes in different form.

 And,  this is the most faith- challenging year for me.

Honestly speaking, I've been disappointed with myself lately. I'm aware, that as human we'll sinned. We tried hard not to repeat the same mistake but yeah, it is not that easy as ABC. I know this is not right, but sometimes, I do wonder if God has really forgiven me or will He forgive me again if I kept on doing the same thing over and over.

Have mercy on me Lord. Amen



P/S: I tried writing this entry in Malay but to fail attempt. Conversing and writing is two different things ; Malay writing is not that easy but I'm not that expert in English as well. But it felt more humane and normal when expressing your inside stories in English. Haha! #siscubatau