Monday, December 31, 2018

2018 inside story

I last blogged on my September's birthday and now, few more days before 2019.

Blame the newly married status (I guess. Haha!) that makes forget about this inside story of mine. But, worry not. I shall do a monthly quick recap for this 2018.

January  

Entering 2018 with no new year resolution since I've always failed to achieve it. Haha. 

But starting this month, I enrolled myself into this BTP - Body Transformation Program lasting for 5 weeks. I consider it as something that out of my comfort zone because during that 5 weeks duration, I need to be in control of my diet and exercise routine; in order for me to not simply give away my RM5 if I were to gain fat. 

Stepping on Gear 2 for the wedding preparation - choosing caterers, deco, theme. 

A sudden interest in applying for Interim. Haha

Losing baby Divine.

February

I decided to continue with BTP. It makes me feel great about myself. I got to make new friends, learnt new exercise routine and most importantly, challenged myself to reduce sugar intake in my everyday diet.

Done with my pre wedding photo shoot. It was tiring but I really enjoyed it; initially, was a bit shy to pose romantically in public but we need too then. Haha.

Done with marriage interview as well. I was so damn nervous but thankfully,it was so okay!  Wedding date is confirmed then!

My second time going for PERKESO interview but for a different position. I was quite shocked to see so many candidates went for this interview - 100++. Group interview was done according to alphabetical order. And being me, I bet you could guess when was my turn. Came 7.30am in the morning and only get to be interviewed at 6.30pm in the evening. Phew.

March

Final month for BTP. Decided to stop for a while - couldn't stand the anxiety attack every Friday (because that's the weigh in day! Haha)

Starting off Sumandak's wedding for this year was Zalia. Hehe. As usual, we' re on duty as bridesmaid.

April

Wedding preparation on going - surveying and buying bridesmaid attire, flowers, meet up with wedding planner.

Heroes Run. Joined just for fun and yeah, it was fun. Hehe

Next Sumandak's wedding- Aneys!


May

Malaysia's 14th General Election - a whole new page for Malaysia. For the first time ever, after 60 years - new government are formed.

1 year anniversary of being engaged and 3 months away before the wedding!

Wedding preparation on going - 70%

June

Missed blogging my inside story on June. Blame it on the busy - ness of getting married. Haha

I went to SPA interview, hoping that I would get in this time.But still. Huhu

Kuching Trip during Raya holidays. I assume it as a bridal shower kind of event. Haha. It was a spontaneous radu trip.

July

1 month to go before my big day. Awww!

This month was more about final meet up with vendor. Me feeling stress? Hmm. Not really, I guess. Haha.

110718 - legally married!

Kiko' s wedding 2 weeks prior to mine.

I was having issue with my leave for the wedding. Admin wouldn't let me go if I couldn't find locum OT.

This part - it did make me feel upset. I couldn't plan for any honeymoon activity. And fiance on that time was not that keen to go away using planes. Phew.

August

110818 - I'm officially married to Easter! Thank you Lord. No wedding is perfect but let bygones be bygones then.

I got my 1 week leave post wedding. A bit too late already to buy air tickets. So, we decided to just do road trip. Ranau to Kudat.

September

Favourite month aka birthday month! And as usual, with lots of public holiday.

Went to Ranau twice this month, to visit Anty Lucy and ABC annual getaway.

Birthday dinner at pizza and I got a watch!

Another job interview, which I didn't expect that I would be called for it.

October

I got the job, was hesitating. I asked around and did my pros and cons for both company. I made up my mind and plan to resign even though I felt so heavy-hearted.

But, miracle happened I guess. I stayed and turned down the job offer. Hihi

November

Sudden desire to join baking class, with Ronn. We really enjoyed it but up till now, we still haven't try it at home.

Another sudden move - attending OT Zura classroom. The course was very helpful and beneficial to me.

KAS gathering. Great!

December

Final chapter of 2018 and my weekend was fully occupied.

2 Sumandaks wedding, Fenny and Neavi with just 1 week gap. Honestly, my initial plan was to only go to 1 wedding (annual leave issue). 

At last, I managed to go both! And I don't regret it.

Gathering and gathering - Sumandaks, Ekon Family.

I found out I'm positive! Thank you Lord. Still in shock and I didn't expect it. Haha. I went for my first Dr visit and yeah, he confirmed it. Hihi. Because I suddenly have this feelings like, "what if, the test was wrong?" Haha. Journey shall start now.

Christmas this year, I'm glad that I'm able  to attend mass with le husband. Both mass. Hehe

It is the last day of 2018 today, and I'm inside story-ing  this at work. Just like previous years, I'm working on this day. I'm still not sure what my plan are tonight, but I will surely slot in the sleeping part. Haha

So, yeah. Off for now!










Monday, September 24, 2018

Final 20s

UPSR season now, and  it reminded me of something during my time.

Exam seat was arranged in alphabetical order. So, you can guess how it was for me. Being almost at the end of the alphabets, I was put on the other class - separated from my bff on that time.

(Back then,we didn't have hall in the school. Exams was done in classroom that could only accommodate about 25-30 people and my class on that time had 45-50 students)

I was upset and slightly angry to my parents, on why they name me W. Haha! One of those silly reasons to get mad at your parents, kan?

Fast forward today,I realized it is more fun being at the end of the alphabets. Like,when I need to check my name in a list - I directly flip over to the last page and voila! I found my name. Easy.Hehe

Thank you Lord. I'm grateful indeed to have them as my parents and I thanked them for raising me up to what I am today.

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I reread all the things that I shared in this inside story of mine - on this particular date. I can see myself growing and progressing from a so-called-teenager-minded into a grown up woman. Hope so.#fingerscrossedw

I seem to be wishing the same old thing annualy - to be a better me.

But this one caught me, 2015's wishlist. I did found what my life calling is  ; because this year, birthday is celebrated with my other half. Yeah!

Thank you Lord! You are awesome!


Less procrastinate. More time with God, loved ones and me.

Tuesday, September 18, 2018

Throwback #4

Hello September! As always, my favourite month.

Recently, my FB newsfeed and Whatsapp status was full with pictures and stories about new students intake, registration, welcoming students and  tips during orientation week.

So, upon seeing this - I automatically had flashbacks of how my early days in Uni.

UKM was my first choice of university but Occupational Therapy OT (my course)  was not. It was my 6th option among the 8.

Obviously, you could guess how I felt deep inside back then when I got this course.
("Huh, kos apaini?" ... " nanti habis mo kerja apa?".." kenapa saya x dapat  farmasi"..." saya jauh suda dari ruma"..." ada ka kawan saya nanti?") 

And the list goes on..

Upon receiving the letter and 80% still in denial, me and my mom went to the nearest cybercafe and tried to search more info about this course in UKM site. Sadly, on that time the information given was so general and not helpful at all ; leaving me more stressful. But the funny thing was, it didn't come up to me,to try and Google or Yahoo it.  Buduh juga la bila ingat balik sekarang. Haha!

The registration day.

My parents sent me off. I was indeed grateful as they were willing to come eventhough it was a last minute one.

Registration process was all okay. I managed to get through it even though deep inside  I felt so bad, ugly. The hardest part was saying goodbye to my parents. Saya tenangis juga la skit walaupun suda berabis tahan. Sakit dada eh. Mau cuba la  ba kunun trip2 ok, tapi x juga. 

Orientation week

The first few days was not ok, it was hell,  buruk betul rasa dia. I cried almost every night to sleep which I bet my roommate heard it (hehe!), I was tired and I still haven't found any Sabahan friend. I mean, yang ada kawan mau becakap sabah gitu. X la rasa alone sangat.

Nearing the end of orientation, I found my Borneo friends. I felt much better although I'm still tired from all the berlari berdua-dua going to the bus, duduk bertiga dalam bas, talks and talks, finishing late at night but waking up early.

Well, I could say that my orientation week was not something that I would happily remember although some of it, was enjoyable and I did have fun. But, yeah. Not all.

I do have a lot more to share but I'll stop for now. Hehe.

I don't regret getting into UKM, in fact, I'm proud to be one of the graduates.

So, for the new intakes - all the best!

#ukmdihatiku




Tuesday, August 21, 2018

110818


180818 - " Cantik ni haribulan. Kita kawin time ni la." 

That was last year, when we were picking date for the wedding.

And yeah, that 180818 was indeed a hot date. So many people get married, engaged and I guess gave birth as well? I mean purposely gave birth on that particular date. Hoping that you'll get what I meant by purposely. Haha

Well as for me, us - we decided that we'd take another date. That is 110818. So, I've been married for almost 2 weeks now. Thank God, with months of planning and surveying - all was sum up in just a day.

Surely, us girls or women would have our own dream wedding.

So, my last 2 weeks wedding was about 90% of my dream wedding. Of course, there were some issues but let bygones be bygones then.

Selamat kawin suda juga pun. Hehe

I thanked You Lord Jesus.  For your blessings and guidance.
Family and friends for the love and support on us both.
And everyone for making  110818 a memorable one.

Cheers to a new journey ahead!

Thursday, July 19, 2018

Have you?

Have you?
I saw this on FB early this year. Saved it with the thought in mind that, I would blog it.

And here  I am, it's July already. Seems like I still procrastinate.

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It's probably because how I was raised ( I think so), I'm not that type of person who will eagerly try new things especially when it's risky and prefer to be in my own nest - comfort zone.

So, when I saw this statement - it kind of spark a little bit of my curiosity + willingness to try out things that I've never think of before.


Apply for that job

I have on and off issue with my job. Still is now, but tone down a bit as I'm more focused on the wedding. Hehe. Although I really wanted a new job,  whether OT related or not -  I still can't get myself to really go and seek for it. I was like, "Ok,tiapa. Nantilah." I tend to complain but never really have the effort to change it.  Phew

So this year. I applied for the job that I wanted and have been waiting for quite some time. When I was asked, are you willing to be posted to places outside Sabah - I said yes!

Date that person

I didn't just date that person, I married him (civil) and in few weeks time for the church blessings. Hehe. That person as in someone that I have never imagined I would be with. Why?  Because he is the opposite of all the things that I would've always want in a guy.

I am indeed grateful to have known him and be part of him.

Buy that plane ticket

I would love to travel but my bank account doesn't allow me to. Haha. I guess, I was lucky enough this year that suddenly Anty B bought tickets to Kuching on Raya holidays. So, I get to save up for the trip. And yeah, the trip was great - we did things that scare us. 

Move to that city

Not really fond of this one. I've lived few years away from my loved ones and I hope that I would never got to do this again.
#fingerscrossed

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Well,there are more than these 4 things. For me, I still have a lot more that I'm scared of but I need to confront it somehow. We are not a tree, so let's move and be a better version of ourself. It will be worth it.

Friday, May 25, 2018

Yes or No ?

Earlier this week, I got a text from someone saying :

"Shallom sis. Bole tolong jadi pemazmur untuk anak saya kawin 2hb ni?"

Deep inside:

"Bole. Bole sangat. Bole jadi pemazmur".

Sadly, I didn't get to reply that. Instead :

"Nanti saya kasi confirm balik ar. X sure dapat cuti ka x.

The next day after asking my boss about it, and this was my response :

" Sorry anty. Saya tidak dapat jadi pemazmur. Saya tidak dapat cuti"

Phew.

This may look like a simple situations in our daily life but being me, this is quite difficult. Why being me ? Because, it's hard for me to say NO. I don't want to turn them down.

Like Aunty B would say - slave of affection. Tidak mau kasi sakit hati orang lain.

Here in JMC, staffs need to apply leave 2 weeks prior to the date; except for emergency cases. But I did try asking my boss, just in case if I still can. Unfortunately, nope. Plus, I don't have that much leave left for my wedding.

With heavy heart, I need to say no. The after effect - I felt guilty.

I bet we all have been through situation that makes us feel torn or caught in between. But, in the end we need to decide what's best even though it may affect us.

Taken from my Tumblr acc. 






Saturday, May 12, 2018

20 cent #3 - 14th General Election

5 years gone by and this year was my second time voting in Malaysia's general election, #GE14.

That 5 years ago #GE13, this politics stuff was not my main  concern. In short, I don't care. It has nothing to do with me. But still, I voted. Mainly because my father was one of the candidates running for the DUN seat; and of course,being a first-timer. Excited-lah konon.

Along that 5 years, I took no interest as well with my surroundings. I live life like the usual, merely complaining about stress at works, traffic jam that I need to go through everyday,  and how I wish to get away from my routine . When mostly  people complained about how GST's and the petrol price affect their life, I remained silent. Bukan juga anak urang kaya ba, tapi  I have what I need-lah. 

I get excited waiting for BR1M every year, except for this year - I don't get it and I don't know why. Deblang sedang diproses. Duh! Tiapa juga tu. X penting. Hihi.
I managed to renew my driving licence and passport without taking leave. Thanks to UTC.

Nearing to the end of this 5 years term, Malaysian has been voicing out the need for government change. Deep inside, I could feel that, #GE14 will set the change.

And this time, I am so keen to vote and fulfill my duty. Not because of the previous reason, but I felt like it's my rights and  I wanted a better future.

Blogging this today - 3 days post #GE14, it is truly a brand new Malaysia. New government. The people have spoken - among the famous line on social media now. This is indeed a great history - new government after 60 years and Tun M as the Prime Minister again.

Congratulations! Hope for a better change.

In Sabah itself, political drama arise and it has been going on for almost 3 days. I have never been so eager, constantly checking my FB and whatsapp for the latest info. Cuti juga kan.Haha!

Being me, I don't comment publicly on the politic's updates posted in FB.Sticking to this. Although I do have my personal opinion and would only share it with people that I trust.
Yalah, inda lah ba juga tiba-tiba mau becerita pasal politik sama orang yang x dikenali di bustop kan. Hehe

It is sad to see how some comments are rude, irrational and childish. Personally, this is what I called abusing the freedom of speech. Keyboard warrior gitu. Semua mau trip hero ba. 

Hmm.

I hope that Sabah get to settle this drama asap.

In the name of the Lord, Amen.








Monday, April 23, 2018

Throwback #3

Facebook memories always bring back the unexpected events happened years ago.

Another one today. 7 years ago.

I remembered feeling worried to the max. Feeling helpless. 

And all I can do on that time, pray and hope that everything will be fine.

Fast forward today, that someone has just double tap on my recent insta photo. Prayers answered back then. Thank you Lord!

Monday, March 5, 2018

What's next??

The other day, I was having my late lunch with mom and le bro. So, we were chit chatting over ngau chap ( eheheh yummy!) and of course wedding topic is a must.

So, le bro was asking me..
" apa la jadi lepas ko kawin??"

Didn't take long for me to answer him..
" saya x tau oh. X sure."

Mom didn't want to be left behind, was responding with..
" dia beranaklah"

Le bro was like, " ko pikir semua orang begitu ka? "

Mom was stunned for a while. Poor mom.

Recently, I saw  FB post from Dr Imelda Bachin. She's the O & G specialist. She shared her experience of a couple who was trying hard to conceive, tried every possible way as they have been wanting a child for so long and of course, the surrounding that has been so 'caring' by frequently asking - " bila nak dapat anak?"
Long story short, the couple did have a baby but the mother died shortly after the delivery due to complications.

Back to me. I  would like to have my own children someday; would be great then if I get pregnant after the wedding. Hehe.

But, that is something that I'm not sure of.

As for now, it feels like - I can just play dumb with the society's expectation. Hopefully when the time comes, I'll act the same.

So, two things here :

Firstly, being the society.  I believe it is within the Asian culture, asking these type of questions (if you know what I mean). Starting today, why not ask other question. Or, don't ask anything at all if you're clueless. Now that when I meet up with old friends, I tried not to come up with sensitive questions.

Secondly, being the person who's being asked. Not mentioning the married couple only, because I was asked "bila mo kawin"? back then. The same category of question. Let's try to ignore them and live life as happier as we can be.

Life's achievement is not measured by your marital status, how many children you have or how many property you own.

So, what's next ? I'll just follow the flow then!


Trust in the Lord. Amen









Thursday, March 1, 2018

March, March and March!

2 chapters over for 2018.  Way too fast, aite?

So.. what have we done, I mean specifically me for the past 2 months? And especially now, it's Lent season.

For wedding part, ya. Few important things were settled.

For myself, still a bit loss. Like,should I try job hunting again or readapt myself with the current situation. Or maybe should I go something out of my comfort zone. Phew. God, it is hard being an adult.

Last year, I was hoping and expecting that this 2018 would bring me something new. But, after my tiring interview last month - I somehow gave up.

But, worry not. March has just march in. So, let's just enjoy today and the rest of the month!


Have a blessed March people!




Monday, February 26, 2018

February excitement

Another productive month for me. Well, I guess it's going to be like that till the wedding. Eh, wedding ?? Oops. Hehe

Just like any other women, I'm excited to the max for the preparation.

Not mainly about wedding, I had other stuffs going on as well. Like going for a job interview, still with the exercise + healthy eating thingy and etc. Haha.

Now that I'm done with my marriage interview and pre wedding shoot, what's next ?

* I was Google - ing a wedding checklist and mostly it is based on a western culture. The closest I get is a malaysian Chinese checklist. Not bad. Buli la. Maybe I should do one - a dusun Catholic wedding checklist. Kann??*

Sneek peek of my prewed photoshoot yesterday. Hihi


Thursday, February 1, 2018

Positive vibes

Bye January. Sadly, I didn't get to blog much although a lot of things happened. Aigoo.

Well actually, starting off 2018 - January was actually quite a productive month.

I've enrolled myself in this Body Transformation Program for a month, should end by this 11th. But I decided to continue for another month. 

Why?

Because it brings out the positive vibes in me. 

So, I look forward to more for this February!




Wednesday, January 3, 2018

Chapter 1, 2018

Hello 2018!

Not really into new year resolution, because I always failed on achieving it.

So, I'll hope for the best on this new year.

Bring it on 2018!