Thursday, February 1, 2018

Positive vibes

Bye January. Sadly, I didn't get to blog much although a lot of things happened. Aigoo.

Well actually, starting off 2018 - January was actually quite a productive month.

I've enrolled myself in this Body Transformation Program for a month, should end by this 11th. But I decided to continue for another month. 

Why?

Because it brings out the positive vibes in me. 

So, I look forward to more for this February!




Wednesday, January 3, 2018

Chapter 1, 2018

Hello 2018!

Not really into new year resolution, because I always failed on achieving it.

So, I'll hope for the best on this new year.

Bring it on 2018!

Friday, December 29, 2017

2017 inside stories

2017 has come to it's final chapter. In few days time, we'll be saying hello to 2018.

Nearing to the end of 2017,  I wonder to myself - what have I done along this year? Have I tried to improve myself,  is there any achievement that I got, what have I done wrong and etc.

Not over thinking but self reflection. I think I didn't set any new year's resolution early this year (I think so), so there's no need to check on that. Kan?

2017. I don't get to blog much this year. But, I made my effort though.

January

Entering new year with a new relationship status. In the movies, the guy would go down on his knee and propose to you. Fancy dinner and a bouquet of flower. Well in my case, it wasn't like that. It's merely a simple conversation that we had in a car and the question pop out. So, this month was more about visiting and getting to know each other family.

On a different note, for the first time ever - I won an oven! Grand prize during JMC annual dinner. Weehuu!

February

Something unexpected event happened here. All this time, I thought that it will never happen till the time come. Emotionally after the event, I was feeling miserable.

Happy events - Sumandaks Aneys got engaged! I myself, kena risik. Hehe. In which, I was ask to hide somewhere during the process. Haha

March

Penang trip with Wakau Clans; everyone were still here. I'm the so called main character during this trip and there were some issue needs to be settled. Thank God it went well, and I'm indeed grateful that Anty Sigu made it to the trip.

I had a challenging task this month,being an OT. I was referred a dynamic splint, which is something I never done before. Honestly speaking, I don't know how to do at all. Got scolded by the specialist up to the point where he questioned my qualification. Thank God for the guidance and assistance from my OT friend, I was able to fabricate that splint. Phew

April

I passed my BLS course. Wow!

We had a last minute plan - Wakau's short trip to Kundasang & Ranau. The place we stayed was big enough as there were at least 20 of us.

Another trip to island. This time around, in Pulau Pandan Pandan KB with my colleagues. Sunburn!

May

I got engaged! Zal got engaged as well, the day after. Haha. We didn't plan it on purpose.

June

Another Sumandaks got engaged, Fenny! A week after me and Zal's.  The month that I need to fully utilized my owing hours because after this, no more. Phew.

In my  June edition - I felt burn out with my routines. I'm aware of this term as I learnt that back in uni. Back then, I felt weird why would someone be burn out with their work. Now that it hits me, it's not to get rid of it.



July

I started doing baby steps preparation for the wedding next year.  We went to Bridal Fair and asked about the packages. Not cheap I could say. 

Uncle Madius got admitted to ICU. His condition was quite critical at that time and he needs to go for surgery.

Another last minute plan. UKM Borneo Gang reunion at Rachel's house. It went well. I would love to stay longer but I can't.

August

It was raining heavily few days of this month and it was flooding in Wakau. I was home on that time.

Church friend from KL came to visit Sabah and I became the unofficial tourist guide. Haha

September

My favourite month and this year, with lots of public holiday. 

My second climb,  post earthquake. 
Losing Uncle Madius
My dessert 28th birthday! Day spent well. Hehe

October

Another item in the wedding checklist - checked! That was, attending a 3 days pre-wedding course. 

Cik Casey came to visit with her little family. Initial plan was to join her in Kundasang, but the date clashed with the course. But, managed to catch up for dinner.

Bad weather + heavy rain. Flooding again. No electricity, no telephone line.

Anty Sigh admitted to HDW. 

November

The unexpected news. 

December

Final chapter.

Annually Ekon's gathering, this year in Tungku, Lahad Datu. I was not planning to go at first since I only have 1 AL left but my parents insist. Just so that I can join them, we went there early Saturday morning, at 4 am and arrived there at 1pm. It was a bumpy ride, I vomited a lot of times. Miscommunication occurred about the homestay direction, dad got so mad that we went back wakau on the same day. Phew

Last minute idea on doing DIY fireplace christmas deco at home,inspired  by the deco here in JMC.

Joined carolling here at Metro Town for the first time. It was tiring but I enjoyed it.

Sumandaks annual gathering. I got a sandal from Rai!

Wakau Christmas gathering. I got a shirt from Aunty Tuna!

Attending bridal shower for the first time. I am the only one wearing a not so according to that theme that night, which is black and white. I wore white but with colors at the front. Haha


2017 - you bring lots of memories,mostly being as a first timer in certain stuff. I had my faith challenged  a lot this year and it did frustrates me. But all in all, I'm deeply grateful for the experiences I gained; may it be positive or negative.


2018 - I have plans for you and I look forward to make it happen, with God's willing. Amen.


P/S : 2017 inside stories is in multicolored font. Haha. Sorry but let it be then.

Thursday, December 14, 2017

Throwback #2

Facebook memories 6 years ago
Another memories pop up from Facebook.

2011 - senior years in UKM. I was busy with clinical postings, case studies and presentations, thesis writing. A lot to deal with back then. Mimang stress gila ni musim. Phew

I did share about it here. Hehe

It feels funny to read back what I've shared on that time.  I was like, "Astaga! Begini ka pula saya dulu?", " Saya ka yang tulis ni?"

A bit childish, I would say. Haha. But, yeah. That was me and I now agree to the statement that people do change. Positive and better change lah kan.

I mentioned about a Dr in that inside story and guess what? We are working in the same place now. Haha. What a small world! That Dr remembers me. He refers patient to us, Rehab Team.

Ok,enough with that.

Main point is,  nothing is impossible when you believe in God. I'm not simply saying this but I've experienced it myself. Hold on to Him even when it feels like a dead end. Have faith.


Thursday, November 30, 2017

When Should I Quit My Job?

What should I write for today? I'm done with my patients for the morning and lunch break is like 2 hours away. Phew. Let me think....

Oh ok, got it. I've watched this video few months ago, shared it on FB as well.

This is a video by Peng Joon - When Should I Quit My Job?

Learn and grow, and you paycheck will grow. Really?

From this video:

Always place growth first and the paycheck second, only if you have the time.

Before leaving the company,ask yourself. Is this company challenging you? Are they constantly taking you outside of your comfort zone so that you can improve?

So, for me - since I've been feeling demotivated with my job recently, let me just do a quick assessment on myself.

My job, has been challenging me,taking me out of my comfort zone but not constantly. Previous post, I mentioned about how I got burn out with the routines. Good news is now, I tried to break it, changing it once in a while.

And, I've been telling myself - good things will come to those who wait patiently and be grateful.

When should I quit? Actually, it is time.  But,I have bills to pay. Quitting just like that is not a smart move. So, I'll wait.

If  you don't like where you are right now, just move. You're not a tree. Yes, I'm not one. Haha




Friday, November 3, 2017

Anty Sigu.

When I was a kid..
"Anty, buli ka tulis nama pakai huruf kecil?"
..... "Amu buli. Ngaran nopo nga mesti pakai huruf besar."

After mass brunch conversation..
"Nak, moi yato akan hilo Luyang la. Ih haro steambot b*bi."
......" Ba,buli bo. Hujung bulan la Anty. Gaji po. Hehe."

Last Monday as I dropped her to school..
"Nak, haro RM 100 nu ka? Poloso oku po da. Amu ku nakasampat minoi atm konihab. Saya mau  belanja tu budak sekolah."
......."Haro bo. Dapo kio."


And I never thought that Monday was my last conversation with you.

You have always been a good listener and very supportive in what ever things that I've shared with you. All these years, you have been fighting with your sickness, never even once showing us how weak you've felt inside.

I am still in shock. I'm writing these in tears. God loves you more and you are now in good hands.

Rest in peace Anty Sigu. I love you . You'll forever be missed.

Sunday, October 29, 2017

Disappointment

I was in the church whatsapp group. So, somebody posted about that particular day readings and reflection. These words caught my eyes.

"Kalau kekecewaan kita kerana kita merasa dan sedar bahawa sikap dan perilaku kita tidak sesuai dengan apa yang diharapkan Allah, kita harus berjuang terus untuk memperbaiki diri kita. Kita harus kembali kepada Tuhan kerana Tuhan sendirilah yang mampu menguatkan kita untuk sampai kepada akhir perjuangan dan perjalanan hidup kita."

Translation:

If our disappointments is because we felt like our actions do not match with what God wants, we should fight to be a better version of our self.  We should come back to God because only He can strengthen us till the end of our life journey.

Sorry for the direct translation. Not that expert 'though.

Firstly, I'm not that religious or holier. Attending mass every Sunday doesn't make me one but I do accept Jesus as my savior; and this tiny faith of mine had kept me going for years.

I believe that each of us, I mean being Christian - we do face challenges in our faith, and it comes in different form.

 And,  this is the most faith- challenging year for me.

Honestly speaking, I've been disappointed with myself lately. I'm aware, that as human we'll sinned. We tried hard not to repeat the same mistake but yeah, it is not that easy as ABC. I know this is not right, but sometimes, I do wonder if God has really forgiven me or will He forgive me again if I kept on doing the same thing over and over.

Have mercy on me Lord. Amen



P/S: I tried writing this entry in Malay but to fail attempt. Conversing and writing is two different things ; Malay writing is not that easy but I'm not that expert in English as well. But it felt more humane and normal when expressing your inside stories in English. Haha! #siscubatau