holiday part 2

actually, there's a lot to write about. but then, I just don't the have the kind of idea yang mencurah-curah ni.. just like I used to. hoho~

and , plus , saya malas. haha~

I was fb-ing the other day, stalking through people's wall., and I found someone's blog. the blog belongs to a she ( perempuan la ba maksud saya tu. hoho!) . the main point here is, I had fun reading her blog and  I got inspired. being inspired is not enough when you didn't start writing right? duh! &^%#@&(

holiday part 2.. I'm still a permanent amah - houseNOTwife at home. so far, no one is interested to take over my post here, at home. haha! no one , I bet.!

I've had my breakdown moments recently, but I've buried , throw them away jauh-jauh. there's no need to keep on hanging and clinging to them. haha! 

it's a good thing actually, because those moments made me think. for this last hols as a student, I want to make the very best out of it. if it possible and of course can la, I want to learn as much as I can - gain skills, fix what so ever "not-so- right" within me, be nice to people around me ( this kinda hard a bit, because I have this some negative feelings towards certain people.huhu!). in short, all the right things la. haha! ( kan senang, cakap begitu seja, mau jg bebunga2. hahaha)

I've been so rajin visiting youtube this hols. listening to songs especially the cover one. got this one cover - right next to you. in the vid, a guy was playing a guitar . ( ehem2, jan sala faham okay! bukan saya tertarik dgn guitarist dia pn. haha!) another being - inspired moment here. I suddenly felt like want to learn to play a guitar.  currently, I don't have even a tiny bit talent in musical instruments and how I wish I had. I used to go  to organ classes during my childhood but I didn't even finish them. *regret mode suda ini*

and then, I wanted to learn and polish my sewing skill. u see, sewing using the machine, - I sooo need to learn them in order for me to survive my final year as an OT student. so, I've told my aunt ( she's an expert in this matter) and has agreed to help me out. thanx! :). okay, off we go to my other aunt's house for this learning session. the first thing I tried sewing was an apron. oh, my sewing skills - speechless. *klu la ada ujian menjahit untuk mo pilih calon isteri, sure la saya the first one yang kena rejek!haha!* jahitan x lurus, jarum mesin patah, benang balik2 putus, I can't even balance the pedal - pedal kaitu ar? haha. paduli la!

okay, I need to attend more session of the class. phew!

oh ya, another sewing stuff that I learned .doing the linangkit- corak benang di baju tradisi. it was tiring, but still I got so addicted in doing it.

 this is the linangkit I've told u. but, it's not complete yet. hoho!

it is holiday, but still I need to start doing my thesis. oh ya, I haven't told u guys about my thesis rite? here's the title.

"perspektif individu dengan kecederaan saraf tunjang mengenai seksualiti dan kefungsian seksual :pendekatan ulasan sistematik"

yup. it is in malay. hoho!

so, for the time being, I need to search and read all the journals related., do a mind map draft and of course the proposal. need to send them as soon as the semester open. so, u see, I'm a houseNOTwife with a thesis waiting for me. haha! but, I like my title. it's interesting. hopefully, no more changes of title la. because i'm so in with this title already. I really hope that everything's going to be fine with this thesis stuff!

okay! that's enough for today's entri. I hope that I'd be given the kerajinan to write up some more. hoho. take care. happy holiday!

R E V I V E !

Previous post of mine - Unfair, Greed, Stupid, Jealousy, Mad, Pity, Frustrated, Disappointed 

Screw you ! Booo! Shhhhuuuuuuu.! Go Away!

Enough with the hell I've felt for the past few days.From now on, I- Winnifred Irene Linggu , will try everything to the VERY BEST OF MY ABILITY, INDEPENDENT, and HAPPY. * yeeehhaaaaa*

Life is too precious to be wasted only to think of people who doesn't even think of you even a second, to feel disappointed over silly things and so much more. So, I will be living my life to the fullest.hoho!                                   

- happy thoughts no matter what-

I don't play any music instruments, I'm not the girl who people would fall for when seeing me  for the first time, I don't master the art of make-ups or hair do, I'm not a fashionista, I don't even own a figure where all the other girls have been dreaming of but I am deeply grateful of being me. Well, nobody's perfect rite? heee.

My besties once said, not everyone is in a relationship-dependent (thanx Rai.! I love you!).It is indeed, so TRUE. Proudly saying, I'm independent and available. ( single is no longer the appropriate term here though! haha~). I'm okay with it. Now, it's the time to just follow the flow. hoho. Because everything is in God's hand. So, I deliver everything unto Him la. Praise the Lord.!

That's okay!I have you, that's all I need. You - yes you!

I'm not alone because I still have you! you - my dear Lord, wonderful family and amazing friends around me. Talk about support. hey! they are the greatest support I had ever have. I love you guys. You are my world!

So, whatever happens, I still have them. Amen.  

That's okay..I have you, that's all I need

"That's okay.. I have you, that's all I need " - Gossip Girl , Season 4 - Ep. 8

Addicted to Gossip Girl ? yah, you could say that.. so - so la. *giggles* 

Frankly speaking, I'm a little bit down  recently. Still with the same silly reason that I've been trying to get rid of but still failed to do so. *sigh*

When will life gets better ? huh.

Unfair, Greed, Stupid, Jealousy, Mad, Pity, Frustrated, Disappointed - do lend me an eraser please. I need to get rid of these . 

Breath in, Breath out. I can do this. I'm way stronger than this. I may have lost once, and I did, regret them. But, let it be. I won't turn back no more.

That's okay.. I have you., that's all I need.  - Thanks dear Lord, for the gifts of having such a wonderful family and friends right next to me. They are the greatest gifts that I have ever have. 

Thanks guys! you rock my world. =)

holiday part 1

first of all, my apology. I haven't been able to update my blog to the latest and current activities that I'm in now. Not that I'm  soooo super busy but you see, being a so-called-amah really do encourage me not to really have time scribbling on my own blog space.. a.k.a malas.. heeee. (^_~)

dear family! too bad being a photographer cuz' I'm not in it.. 

One of the most favorite moment I had in a month is at the end of the month. Guess what??? hohoo.. It's my family gathering. Not the all - big family, only the Bukut clan a.k.a my father's siblings. I don't know why, but I feel contented and I just really love seeing all many people that I know gathered together. So, this is the June's gathering. We were celebrating the parent's day and anyone who was born on that month. One thing special on this day, I mean this June edition of family gathering was that, we managed to persuade our grandmother (my father's mother), the one in the yellow shirt to come, take pictures and eat together. Usually, she won't join us. . and to make it more interesting, she was smiling in that picture.. wow!~

 nice is it?? see the sunlight. hoho

Last weekend, could say, I am fully occupied. haha ! Being a tutor half of the day.. and the other half became a farmer.. haha! well.. pictures tells a thousand words aite.. ? so , here's  a few la..

kami sedang menanam padi. hoho.

Inilah first time saya mongutus tusok (mencabut anak padi?? - err,.. betul ka tu??), mongimbasiu (membuka bhg2 yg kering dan rosak . kn?) dan mananom parai (menanam padi). . haha! great experience.. glad to be born and raised as a Dusun... haha!.. But, then it was very tiring. huhu. I think I slept early that night. 

I think that's enough for today's entri. haha! take care!

kisah LI saya.=)

oyeay! saya dengan ini mengisytiharkan LI sudah habis! hohoo... weeee^^

Saya berjaya mengharungi kepayahan bangun awal - balik lambat selama sebulan ber LI. tahniah semua.!

First of all, no pictures will be post here as  I think it is not really appropriate to post the client's pictures here. Privacy la . So, only some stories la .

I was doing my LI at Jabatan Perkhidmatan Kebaijikan Am , Sabah .. located in Sembulan there. So, you see. It took about 1 hour plus2 reaching there from my home. So, everyday, I woke up around 5.30 and got back home only around 8.30. So tiring.. huhu *sigh*.

Early in the morning because need to send so many people and late in the evening due to traffic jams and waiting for my brother. huhu. =(

This LI season.. I mean what do I did during this time.. involved in  managing the OKU - filling .. online registration and doing some assessment.. and then  OKU home visit...

After that, visit to the old folks home and special children.. wahhh.. learn a lot and met so many new people.!

This has been the most wonderful LI experience for me. The people were so nice and helpful. no stress! hope that this would be the environment that I'm going to have for my real career world. Amen.!

mini smeshian reunion..^^

I have never been to any of my school reunion. So, this considered as my first time la. I mean with the others la.. because before this, only with the Sumandakz ma. hoho!

So,this event took place in Pulau Manukan dan CP.. (* this is my first time going to Pulau also. haha!*)

Out of 100 person in my batch, only 9 showed up for the pulau trip. haha! but still, I enjoyed them to the fullest. Interesting and quite funny part was.. it was raining on that day .. not really the types of cat and dog but still.. raining- lah!.. oh,  I was going to say this in Malay - walaupun hujan turun mencurah-curah, semangat kami pergi ke pulau tidak pudar. haha!

some of the pictures! wanna see more, visit my fb. =)

Confirm basah habis la as soon as we arrived there and yes, we were the first so- called- tourist came on that day. haha! maybe the others canceled their plans once the rain started pouring. unlike us ! hoho

The activities done were - BBQ, photo shoots with various types of camera, snorkelling - first time also, mandi- manda. haha!

This is considered as my first time going to the beach without getting sun burn. pheww!. haha. because the weather was a bit cloudy and not so sunny. heee! i liikkkeeeee.=)

reunion in CP- the next day.

okay! looking forward to another smeshian reunion. =)

heart of vacancy.

I heard a new song today and I just wanna share it with u guys because somehow somewhere, I think we're connected aka related. haha! *euww*

I feel your heart cry for love, 

But you won't let me make it right. 

You were hurt, but I decided, 

That you were worth the fight. 

Every night, you lock up, 

You won't let me come inside. 

But the look in your eyes, 

As I can turn the tide. 

In your heart, in your heart, in your heart, 

I can tell you can fit one more. 

In your heart, in your heart, in your heart, 

I don't care who was there before. 

I feel your heart cry for love, 

Then you act like there's no room. 

Room for me, or anyone, 

"Don't disturb" is all I see. 

Close the door, turn the key, 

On everything that we could be. 

If loneliness would move out, 

I'd fill the vacancy. 

In your heart, in your heart, in your heart, 

whhoooooooo 

In your heart, in your heart, in your heart. 

whhoooooooo 

This ain't the Heartbreak Hotel, 

Even though I know it well. 

Those no shows, they sure tell, 

In the way you hold yourself. 

Don't you fret, should you get, 

Another cancellation. 

Give me a chance I'd make a, 

Permanent reservation. 

In your heart, in your heart, in your heart, 

I can tell you can fit one more. 

Open up make a brand new start, 

I don't care who's stayed before. 

I feel your heart cry for love, 

Then you act like there's no room. 

Room for me, or anyone, 

"Don't disturb" is all I see. 

Close the door, turn the key, 

On everything that we could be. 

If loneliness would move out, 

I'd fill the vacancy. 

In your heart, in your heart, in your heart 

whoooooooooooo, 

In your heart, in your heart, in your heart. 

whoooooooooooo 

When I, talk to you, on the phone, 

Listen close. 

I feel your heart cry for love, 

Then you act like there's no room. 

Room for me, or anyone, 

"Don't disturb" is all I see. 

Close the door, turn the key, 

On everything that we could be. 

If loneliness would move out, 

I'd fill the vacancy. 

In your heart, in your heart, in your heart, 

whhoooooooooooo 

In your heart, in your heart, in your heart. 

whhooooooooooooo

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/heart-vacancy-lyrics-the-wanted.html ]

 Hope you guys enjoy this song as much as I do.. cheers! (^_~)