June Edition

June 2014 - We've reached in the middle of the year. Thank God, thank you. Extremely grateful for every little blessings nor challenges that had happened in my  life.

Well, life is a bit busy. As always. Get back from work - tired - sleep . Phew. Nevertheless, thankful that I had a job. :)

Seriously, I missed being on inside story. I have a lot to tell but time forbids me so. Actually, I can if I really want to but being me, that extreme desire doesn't always come in hand. You see, I've learnt that almost everything is at the level of good enough. So, why bother of doing more if the current one is good enough? Haha. The positive and negative side of having that attitude.

Self conflict. Yeah, almost everybody been through that during their teen years. But, not me I guess. My teen years, well, to think back of it, it was a bit dull. Not to say that I wanted to do crime or what when I was 16, but I wish I could've step out of my comfort zone and explore new things.

So, in short, I don't have that self conflict or hormonal changes during my teen years. Hihi.

It may sound funny, but I'm actually experiencing it now. I feel like, I am having this self-conflict inside of me. After all this time, self conflict is finally occurring to me. Gosh.

I'm not quite sure how you guys may define a self conflict actually, but for me, my self conflict is actually, the feeling of inferiority and self doubt. Honestly saying, at times I feel myself so small comparing to others and I so feel like left out.

Not to say that I'm not being grateful for what I am now, but sometimes that feeling just came creeping inside. I wish I have the strength to tell myself that I'm not small or etc, but ya, I still choose to believe in my so irrational thought.

Grown up issues #2

Almost all the things or stuffs happened in our life, we tend to complain. Even those tiny little things.

We complained a lot to, I mean expressing our dissatisfaction towards something mostly to our loved ones. Hehe. Right ?

Obviously, the reason of complaining to loved ones is mainly the attention. We want their attention on us. We want them to know what is happening around us.

I'm not sure if it applies to you, but it sure do to me. I complained because I want them to know my situation. At times, I complained because I need their opinion, thoughts or someone to back me up on that matter. But, all in all, I just want someone to listen to all of the complaints that I've made. Why loved ones? Because I trust you the most.

But then, listening to many complaints can be difficult too. Yes, I'm fully aware of that. Getting to hear too many complaints can make the listener fed up, bored or even mad. With you. In this case, it's me.Phew.

I'm not asking for much but the next time you ever hear me complain again, just please pretend that you're listening. That's all I'm asking for.

Complaining to loved ones is another way of releasing the stress inside - Yup, that's true. I'm just releasing the stress inside me. So please, don't get mad at me.

incikk ♥

indeed. ;)

Happy, happy birthday incikk dearr ! 

Another year older today. Hehe. ~ tuaa suda. hoho~

selamat hari jadi incikk. semoga anda semakin gojess dan ensem. haha. 

For the third time, happy birthday dearr. May all your wishes come true and hope that you will have a blessed birthday this year. and of course, blasted! Hoho.

Shower him with your abundance blessings, Lord; that he may be given the best health, success in whatever he do, prayers of hope and prosperity. Amen.

Thanks God! and thanks to you incikk. For I am lucky enough to have someone like you that makes saying good bye so hard.

Love you to the moon and back. Hehe. ♥♥

Grown up issues #1

Phew, again. Blogging when April has almost come to its end. Busy? Ya, could be. A little bit. Well, grown up kan? Hehe

When I was a kid, I was so looking forward of being an adult. I remembered back then, when chatting on mIrC ( is that how it was spell? Fuh. I forgot already o), I lied about my age saying that I'm 19 instead of 12. Haha. mIrC was the 'in-thing' on that time. No one for sure want to chat with you, if you type in  12/F/ KK. Haha! (a/s/x ba. hehe)

Now, that 19 was way behind me already, I soo miss being one. I mean, not only 19, being kid or teenager to be exact.  On that time, I don't have to think a lot like I did now. Hmm.

Grown up issues #1 - Being with peers or colleague

Students world - You only got to mix and mingle with people that are around your age.

Working world - Mix and mingle with everybody . :)

I learnt a lot in being a newly grown up person. That, you cannot please everybody. 'Though you try hard to do your best and of course not disappointing others, still in the end- to fail attempt.

So, be grateful and just be yourself.

emotionally unstable

March - almost to its end. Saying hello to April  soon enough.

Frankly speaking, I am emotionally unstable. Now. For no reason. I mean the main reason behind all the unstable emotion. Phew*

I admit, I've got a lot of things running on my mind - some are even irrational and illogical. *sigh*

Art Attack!

Ever heard of Brain Gym ? Well, for me, I've heard of it during my student years but not much information on it.

Now that I'm in a working world, I have always wanted to learn and experience new things - as in to gain more knowledge about OT, especially dealing with kids.

Aha! Grab the opportunities while you still can. Well, million thanks to the centre that I worked with and someone or maybe somebody who willingly sponsored us to join this two day course. Thank you! :)

Day 1 -Brain Gym

Well, this one day course is actually just the very basic and exposure of what brain gym is. So, we were only taught of 26 basic steps.  This course last for the whole day. Usually, I won't be able to stand that very long period of time. But, I did and I survived. It was fun then as I didn't even noticed the clock is ticking.

Sneek peek to the 2nd day course - Friendship Doodle! :)

Day 2 -Double Doodle Play

Double Doodle Play as the name given - double the happiness and  joy in this second day course. I was never that interested nor motivated in art before but thanks to this course, I started to fall in love with art, colourful art. It is something that makes me feel so inspirational, motivated and energetic to do all the activities. Double Doodle - using both of your hands to draw and paint. Voila, see for yourself !

This is a friendship doodle that I got from Nat - thanks! :)

One of the drawings that I made using all the 5 key hands movement! Cantik kan ? Hehe

Well, I'm feeling so grateful that I'm able to join this course. My advise for you, do join this course this too and you won't regret it. Hehe. 

Have faith

Too many incidents happened recently . The hottest issue right now - Missing of MH370 plane.

I, myself is also having my own personal issue. Come to think of it, this is maybe one of the challenges that I need to go through during this Lent Season.

Indeed, God always has something for me and of course, for us all. Never give up on God, as he never did on us.

#Pray for MH370 - may the mystery be solved.