Losing

Gaining and losing are the two things that would always happen in life.

Not exactly today, but I lose someone dear to me. Grandma.

Days before, you were just fine. To know that you were suddenly gone the next day, was actually tearing us apart.

But, deep down inside, I believe that God has something better for you Grandma. Rest in Peace. We will always have you in our thoughts and prayers.

We may not be as close as anyone else could be , a grandma-granddaughter relationship but I know that you've always loved me.

Amen.

Desire

I wish. :)

Surely, this has been - the ultimate desire of every girl in this universe. That includes me.

Since I was a teenager ( few years back), I've always planned that I would get married at the age of 25, and here I am 26.

But, how do you really now if you've made the right choice? the right man? and the right decision.

Guide me o Lord. Amen.

February

 Chapter 2 of 2015

Hello, Chapter 2! I've got a list of  things to be done and I'm not even sure where to start first. Here's a few.Hehe.

Vintage!

1. Considered as a big project for this year. Have a lot of ideas running but still couldn't decide which

    one to do. And yes, I should slowly start doing it ! or else, it wouldn't turn out as I've imagined 

    and expected it to be.

Ka-chingg!!

2. Should strive for more savings.MORE. A lot of event that needs this Ka-chingg! things. 

    Savings VS Shopping temptations. How's that ? Pheww.

Frame deco

3. DIY Home deco project. At a very slow pace. Hehe.

Quarter-Life-Crisis

Check this out  - 10 signs of Quarter-Life-Crisis

Just by looking at it, I think I am having a Quarter-Life- Crisis. Hmm.

1. Daydreaming about doing something crazy

Hell yeah! I did that. Singing lively in a band, entertaining humans in a big hall. Haha. In which, this ideas stay as  purely my imagination. Hoho

Accepting overseas job offer or somewhere not in Malaysia. I once dream of going to pursue my career in Singapore or Brunei.

2. ... but  feeling paralyzed by indecision

Indeed. I wanted to do as many things that I can during my 20's but to really do it, I'm not that brave enough.

3. Feeling increasingly nostalgic for high school and college days

Totally. These days, I had been always doing throwback and recap of my student years. Feeling so grateful that I don't have to think a lot just like what I'm in now.

4. The idea of making a budget is terrifying

True enough. Back in student years, I've always thought that I could somehow handle this financial matters wisely but the truth is, I still have a lot to learn. I couldn't really persuade my mind to save more many for future events. Huh.

5. Starting to think of dating life differently

I have just been in a relationship. Thank God. Current mode, how to spot Mr Right. And yes, I want commitment. 

6. Have sudden, sudden intense of failure

Been experiencing this almost every day, especially now that I'm in a new work setting.

7. Bored with your friends

Gotta to disagree with this one. Not bored, instead craving for it! but still depends on the timing. There are times that I just love staying and lazying at home.

8. Constantly comparing self to same age friends

Yeah, sometimes I wonder, am I really 25 ( plus few months. hehe) ? I felt like heaven and earth different with some of my same age friends. This, especially when they're getting married and here I am still single.

9.  or my parents  when they are my age

Hm.. not really . Hee

10. Feeling like this twenties aren't turning out how  I expect it to be

Exactly! I feel loss and always have this question popping out of my brain - " Am I living my life correctly?"

Ok. I think I am having this crisis for now. Full stop.

Self Reminder

I'm still in the midst of fighting against my temptations. For once, I think I almost did it but there were times that I lost.

Info are easily available nowadays. Just the tip of your finger, they say. So, the other day, I was having my own personal issue about something. I don't really have the courage to ask people, human to be exact. So, I googled them.

I read it. Interesting, yet deep meaning. Leaving my brain working hard to digest them.

The body is not for immorality, but for the Lord, and the Lord

 is for the body;  

Every other sin a person commits is outside the body, but

 the immoral person sins against his own body. 

1 Corinthians 6 : 13c-15a, 17-20.

The Uncertainty

Life is like a roller coaster ride. At one time,you're on the top feeling so energetic and next you' re so down there that you feel like losing hope. In short, life changes right ?

Just when life changes for better ( or may be even for worse ), the people in it change too. Well, I'm one of them. I felt the changes within me.

I thanked God for the positive changes except for the one that I felt now. Not to say that I'm not being grateful or what but actually I was kinda of confused and unsure.

If previously, I was confident enough that this is what God's plan for me but now, I'm not sure. New plan I guess Lord ?

Whatever it is, I seek your guidance o Lord. Amen.

2015

Saying Hello to 2015!

Hello, everyone! Happy New Year! I hope that you have a wonderful New Year Eve celebration last year. Last year ? Hehe. Time flies fast.

I did! I  enjoyed my New Year Eve celebration although it's just a very simple and usual one. BBQ + eat + drinks. So called drinks la. Haha!

Happiness is celebrating New Year with you special ones.

 A quote I've seen on FB few days back.

We're back to January and again it's the first chapter of 2015 book. How is it going to be? We are yet to find out but I'm fully hoping (fingers-crossed) that this first chapter would be great and amazing.

Stay tune then. :)