Tuesday, October 6, 2015

Marriage Mystery

Last Sunday's readings during the mass were indeed meaningful - especially to myself, as I am now still in the middle of recognizing my life calling.

All the readings were about marriage and family; and being in a quite controversial age  for this marriage-and-family thingy, this was something to ponder and think deeper.

In life, obviously  in our own community, people  tend to look and measure your life achievements through marriage. You finish your study, get a steady job, meet up with someone and get married to that someone. That's how you should live your life - or so, according to the norms.

But, little did they know that getting married is not that easy as ABC. It's not like your future husband is in front of you, or money flowing from the sky that you can just throw a big wedding reception party or perhaps you are mentally ready enough to change your status from Single to Married.

Sounds complicated, huh? Indeed. But, I would rather say marriage is a mystery and such a wonderful gift from God.


I come to believe that not  everyone was destined to live a marriage and family life; or maybe meeting and getting married to that someone not in the normal timing (as in around your 20's).

For me, since I was still a school girl, I'm 100% being positive that someday when I grow up, I would achieve that getting married + family life milestone.

But, these days, I come to understand how God's intervene in our daily life. It's all about the perfect and right timing. We may pray hard for a life partner today, or perhaps a family life but do we really get it on time? Sometimes we do, sometimes we not.

But, in the end, all that matters is, to keep our faith to God because His plans for us are even more amazing than what we have for ourselves.

So, be still. Our prayers for a marriage and family  life may not be answered today but bear in mind, good things come to those who wait patiently.

Who knows, my soulmate is just next door but it's just that I'm blinded to see that it was him after all? Hahaha. #fingerscrossed.

So then, what God has united,human beings must not divide.

Friday, October 2, 2015

Conquering your fear

We're not perfect. Obviously. Each of us has our own fear. Be it fear of failing, fear of the darkness, fear of  being in a closed space, fear of the unknown and so forth. I've always believed that what we've become today or how our personality is, it's all from our childhood background and experiences.

I was raised in a kampung  setting, in which, when I recalled back, it was awesome and I'm truly grateful for it. It may not be the extreme kampung  setting but I did enjoy  climbing trees, playing in the mud, be able to experience the kampung chores, swimming in the river and spending most of the time with outdoor activities. By looking at it, I should become an adventurous, brave and would easily adapt with new environment person, right? but I guess, I'm not that. 

I, first noticed my not-so-adventurous personality when we had our trip to Genting Highlands and Sunway Lagoon (back when I was still a student). Being in a teenager-adult-to-be phase, I should have no problems in trying and playing all those games in the theme park. Unfortunately, it's the opposite. I don't have the courage to go and play the extreme games - Roller Coaster, Space Shot, Aladdin Magic Carpet and etc. Sorry, I forgot what are the other extreme games.

Such a waste. Isn't it? You paid for RM80 (quite a lot of amount for a student on that time) but you didn't try all the games.  

That was during my first trip. On my second trip to Sunway, most of my Borneo gang tried to convince me to go and ride on those extreme games. I hesitated at first but after some time, I agreed to it.

Voila! I did it and it feels great, and as always I would end up say - "First & last la tu. Saya tidak mau naik lagi". Ha Ha Ha.

Now that I'm an adult, I once again came across with this kind of situation. This time, it was in Cebu.
Sky Experience Adventure. Honestly speaking, it was scary, especially the Edge Coaster Ride. I remembered screaming out of fear most of the time.

But, I did it. Relief. Thank God. I survived.

I may never and would never know how does it feel or  aware of my self -limit if I haven't experience it myself. One thing that I learned, with even a small amount of courage, I was able to conquer my fear. The end result - feeling satisfied with own self.

At least, I would have something to brag about when people ask me!  Ha Ha Ha.

Sky Walk Adventure. Ho Ho Ho.