Life Goals

I saw this few days ago on Facebook. Decided to save it and shared it on my inside story today.

Surely, most of us have our own life goals. Despite my quarter-life-crisis that is on-going now, deep down, I still have this goals that I wanted to achieve in life.

1. Graduate college

Thank God. I graduated from UKM about 3 years ago. Time flies fast, eh? I've managed to survive the uni student life for 4 years and able to get my degree scroll. Life goals 1 - Checked!

2. Find a decent job

Of course, once graduated, everybody's dream is to find a decent job. Well, for me, I've been through few moments of being jobless, not in the right and decent job before I'm in my place now. But still, this is something to be thankful to. I'm indeed grateful for my job today, but I do hope that better job opportunity would come my way soon. Amen. Life goals 2 - Checked!

3. Pay my parents back for the sacrifices they made

For this one, I have to say no. Nope, I haven't pay my parents for the sacrifices they made for me. In fact, I could never repay them. The sacrifices that they made could and will never be repay in monetary terms. Well, though you can repay them in so many ways, but still I don't think it will ever be sufficient. Life goals 3 - Not yet : (

4. Save a lot of money

Moneyyyy! Hot stuff. Hehe. I'm in the process now. Last time I checked, my money haven't grow to the amount that I wanted yet (with so many zero at the back.Haha!). Wish that I have a money tree to grow them. Life goals 4 - On going :)

5. Travel around the world with friends/family

Well, not around the world but few places already. Next destination : Cebu City, Philippines.

Life goals 5 - On going :)

6. Help the less fortunate (Donate for charity/orphanage and etc)

See those people that sometimes sits on the hallway, sleeps on the street or come to you while you're having your meal - I have always been hesitant to these person. I thought that they are connected or related to some kind of scheme or what ever lah. So, honestly, I rarely give them the money. But still, I did  donate for some other unexpected events. Like the Sabah earthquake.Need to practice  giving more to people who really needs it. Life goals 6 - On going :)

7. Get married (If it God's plan)

My ultimate desire. I've prayed for this things to happen. But now, I feel like 50-50. If it God's plan for me, to get married, then I believe it would happen. If it's not, help me God to just be content and grateful for the life-callings that is meant for me. Life goals 7 - Uncertain.

How's yours?

Last Page - Saying NO ?

The very last page of Chapter 8 today. FYI, it's a long weekend! Weehuu! I at first thought that this long weekend would enable me to spend more time on my inside story, but I'm afraid, it's not. I ended up doing all the things that was out my of last-week-planned-to-do-checklist for this week. Phew.

I've been looking forward to this long weekend with the list of things to do. You see, recently, I mean since I moved to Beverly during the weekdays, the desire of going and yet spending time at home sweet home is high. I don't mind staying home during this whole long weekend but I didn't stayed.

I thought today, the last page of Chapter 8 would enable me to do so but still, no. Huh. I know, I sounded like a kid, didn't get the dolls that she wants. But, I don't think it's wrong to act like that at times.(although, I think I acted like that most of the time. Haha)

I read somewhere, being an adult women, you need to learn to say NO, or it's okay to say NO. Sounds rude, eh? But I think it's true. You can't please everyone. You need to respect and have time for yourself too.

But yes, certain situations makes it hard for you to say NO. You end up saying YES and suffer during the after-YES-incident. 

So, my last page today, is the result of not being able to say NO to someone. I, with so heavy-heart (direct translation. hihi) said YES and most of the time now, I complained and regretted of saying that YES word.

Lord, help me to learn and humbly accept the things that I've said Yes today. Amen.

Chapter 8

Wow! Chapter 8 of 2015 already, and so many things happened.

I've been through the ups and downs in all the previous chapters but I'm always thankful for those moments.

Yup. Recently, I've been doing few so-called throwbacks or flashbacks of all the people that used to be part of my inside story. I began to see and understand why some of them are no longer in my  inside story list. And yet, I'm looking forward to meeting more.

I'm more than blessed, Lord. Amen.

Quarter Life Crisis Checklist

I'm still in my  being 20's life issues. When will this end? *Phew. I know, I'm not alone in this so called season but for now, I haven't met someone close to me, that is also experiencing this kind of issues. Because, if I do find that someone, pep talk perhaps? ( Pep talk? Hmm. )

So, I've been doing some readings to really dig deeper into this quarter life crisis; and here I found a 25 checklist. Feel free to check yours. :)

1. Have you gotten your dream job?

To be exact, I've always wanted to be a Pharmacist since I was in Form 4. But, I believe God has another plan for me - I'm now an Occupational Therapist. I'm in the job. But, another but here. To say that this is the dream job for me, no. Not at all. I've always dream of working as an Occupational Therapist in a government sector. So, it's a no then. I haven't gotten my dream job. Soon maybe.

2. Have you tried pursuing (at least) your dream job ?

Yes, I did. I tried twice. Luck was not on my side, I guess on that moment. Good things happen when you patiently wait for it. I always have my faith in God that someday, I will enter the government sector. God's timing is always perfect.

3. Have your opened a savings account in your name that really is  for "saving"?

Yes, I have one. I opened my ASB account back in 2011. I've been inspired by my course mates. I may not be able to chip in to it every month for now but still, something to count on to when I'm in need.

4. Do you consider yourself independent? Responsible? In all aspects?

My ugly truth - No. I still have a lot of things to learn and honestly speaking, I won't be able to face it alone. Currently, I see myself mostly still depending on my parents - the very obvious reason is because of financial aspect. Not that I need to ask them for every little penny on the things that I wanted, but they do play a major role in this matter.

5.  Are you pleased with your current job? Does it give your fulfillment?

Well, for this one, I have to say that it's a yes and no. It is a yes when I feel that I've tried my very best in treating my client aka patient. No, because there are times that I just wish I have another job other then this.

6. Have your pursued your passion/s?

Yup. I love musics, arts and crafts, blogging. I've been doing all that now.

7.  Are your passionate about your partner and  your relationship?

I thanked God for my partner. I remember back then when I used to pray hard for one. But then, I'm a bit confused for now. Is he the one? How can you really know he's the one ?

8. Have you found your friend for keeps?

I did. You know who you are. We may need not to be in contact for 24/7, but deep down inside, I know that you'll stand by me.

9. Do you have your own place? Your own little sanctuary?

I only have my bedroom for now. I would love to have my own house and do the paintings but yeah, not yet.

10. Can you keep a pet ? Like for a lifetime?

I don't think I can keep one. Not for a lifetime.

11. Are you confident with your skin?

Indeed. No doubts.

12. Would you say that you've taken a good care of yourself? Are you in good shape?

I don't think so. I'm fully aware the needs and importance of eating right + being physically active but I couldn't convince myself to do so. Good shape? Not so.

13. Have you seen one of your dream destinations?

I don't have one. Haha. Too bad.

14. Have you experienced air travel ? sea travel ?

Yes, I did experience both.

15. Have you learnt that language you've been wanting to be fluent in for ages?

I am learning. Mandarin language. Hehe

16. Have you made your parents proud? Have you made yourself proud?

I may not know what are their criteria's of being proud, but I guess, I did. For myself, I haven't reach to the goals that I wanted in life, but yeah, I'm proud of being me.

17. Have you invested on improving your skills/talents?

Is mandarin and piano class considered as one? because if it's a yes, then I am investing now.

18.  Have you gone on what  you'd consider your most thrilling adventure yet?

I think I did. I, for once not that eager to climb Mount Kinabalu but I managed to go against my so-called- thinking. I conquered Aki Nabalu!

19. Do you like what you see in the mirror? Is she beautiful?

I love what I see in the mirror. She is indeed beautiful in her own way. Although I 'm hoping that I'm a bit skinnier but deep down inside, I'm extremely grateful.

20. Have you finished that book that's been sitting on your bedside table for years?

Yes, I finished them all this year.

21.  Have you outgrown your teenage shitty habits?

I'm not sure about this one.

22. Have you done half ( or been half) of what you've resolved to be your New Year's resolution/s?

It won't be half, but I'm working on it.

23. Have your stood up to your bullies?

Thank God. So far, I haven't met one.

24. Have you forgiven those who hurt you?

In the process, I guess.

25. Are you happy with the person you've become?

I am happy, because I know, God's plan for me is indeed wonderful.

How's yours then?

Self Reminder - Loved ones

 Family is everything.

This is something you’ve heard countless times from your parents and other grownups when you were just a few feet old but you’ve really learned its essence to the core of your being when you’ve spent years away from home while trying to chase after what the future holds for you. You learned that your mother really is the superwoman in your life without the red and yellow costume you’ve drawn and imagined her to be when you submitted your second grade homework. You learned that your sibling is the greatest ally you can have, no matter your differences. You learned of the grave difficulty your parent/s has/have gone through just so you can have a comfortable life after receiving your paychecks that were earned through a month’s worth of petty issues at work, fatigue, emotional distress, questioning of self-worth and so much more but you still have to show up because yeah, this is life. You respect your parents more because of that. You learned that at the end of the day, the sweetest idea will always be that you will always have somewhere to go and your most favorite people in the world are there waiting for you.

Quoted from  The Ten Things Every Women Must Have Realized at 25.

I am 25 and a few more months to 26. Grown up women, eh? 

Well, honestly speaking - Yes, I've come to realize that family is everything to me. Not that I don't see it before reaching 25 but being 25 ++ is like, certain things has becoming much more clearer to me. Probably because, it's who I am today.

Often, these days we tend to spend more time on our work and of course, enjoying life as a grown up single women. Being grown up single women in your 20's is like soooo great. You have a job, you have the money and you're in the age where freedom is all yours. Amazing, isn't it? (p/s: This includes me, enjoying my 20's. So, worry not. I'm not being sarcastic here)

We're so caught up with our own commitment that we, in the end spend lesser time with our family, to be exact, our parents. They're getting older and won't be around that long. We may not be able to repay what they've given to us but the very least that we can do is to spend more time with them. Of course, they won't expect you to be there for 24/7, but then, always put them among your top priorities.


Lord, I pray for your guidance and blessings showered upon both of my parents. May they be given the best health, strength and courage to live this life. Amen.

Wedding Project

The big project  that I was talking about last February.  A wedding project. Yup. Not mine. But, I acted like mine. Hehe

The wedding!

Well, I've been planning this project since January. We (my team,aiseeeh! I mean the family) decided to do it DIY, just because of the nowadays expensive- GST thingy. Plus, all those ideas can be Google. So, why bother wasting for about 1.2 K just for a pelamin right?

You see, although I'm not the main picture here (the pengantin) but I still feel excited. I'm planning a wedding. A wedding. It is indeed exciting right?

At first, I thought of doing,  thinking + getting, I mean all the ideas from my magic brain. Unfortunately, being in a allied health professional background, I was aware that stress would soon creep in if I were to do it all by myself. So, I delegate. Brilliant, aite?

I will be doing the main deco + theme for the pelamin and the photobooth + registration is my cousin, Gc. I have faith in her as I see that she has the almost same level of thinking and ideas for the theme. Hoho. Thank God, my Aunty B, volunteer herself to do the wishing tree . Voila, all is set then. Hehe.

Oh. The theme is Vintage & Rustic.  Great, isn't it? Hehe

Table number, please? - the idea was to put a white sand. end up with not so white sand + polisterine. Hehe

Just like I've mentioned in my February post, I have a lot of ideas running, googled a lot of beautifully-DIY-vintage background but still, couldn't make up my mind on which one to do. Indecisive, much?  (ini baru wedding si abang, belum lagi wedding saya! Haha!)

In the end, I stick with my initial ideas - pastel paper pin wheel. the woods, and combine with pom pom.

I only managed to take these pictures, the night before the wedding. Too bad, didn't take during the actual day where all the sofa's and other deco were put in.

The other important aspect of wedding deco - wedding arch.This is actually was part of Anty B's effort, together with my cousin, Lilo. I know that she was really, like really into doing this DIY arch made from dried leaves or plants and all she wants was someone to do the frame. Unfortunately, no one was willing to and that actually disappoint  her. So, my dad suggested to just rent the frame and then just do the flower arrangements, etc - DIY.

Tadaaa! the DIY flower + dried gorouk ranting. Flower's actually from mami's retirement gift. Beautiful, isn'it? Still, didn't manage to take actual photos of the arch during the wedding. This photo is actually post wedding.

Another famous trend in nowadays event - Photobooth! But, honestly speaking this DIY photobooth is under utilized. Probably because of the weather - it was raining on that day. Never mind then. For me, the photobooth was beautifully amazing. Those crepe paper looks like they can be eaten. Haha.

Another post wedding shot. Phew! But, still those crepe paper color looks like something to eat. Haha.
Credits to Gc.

Planning a wedding is not easy. There is a lot of things need to be think of, done and etc. Doing it all alone also not easy. But, hey- I'm glad I have a team of very supportive, creative and wonderful people  around me. Thank you, dear families - especially Wakau Clan & Abun Sominding members.

Should anyone  interested with our art work, please, don't hesitate to contact us. Haha. Just Kidding!

Part of the team. Ignore my face yang macam baru bangun tu walaupun tidak. Hehe

Solidarity for Sabah

For the first time ever, 5th June 2015 with a magnitude of 6.0 at 7.15 am Earthquake struck Sabah. And this followed by another aftershocks  that still can be felt up till last Saturday, 13th June.

No one, especially Sabahan has ever thought that something would happen on that ordinary day. Everyone was one their usual routine. 

As for me, I had just arrive at my workplace,  alone and settling down while surfing the net. On that time, construction was doing their work upstairs. So, when the earthquake struck and with the tremors ( it is strong !), I acted fine and calm as I thought it was the construction doing the works. At one point, I realized , it's not. Nervousness creep inside of me. I hurriedly take my bag and went out from the building. I went outside and saw everyone was gathering there too. Check my whatsapp and everybody was talking about it. Phew*

I, at first never thought the one, up there climbing the Mount Kinabalu and on that time, I never thought the epicentre was from the mountain itself.

Honestly saying, I can't never imagine how does it feel for the family members at this moment of time, in losing their loved ones. Heartfelt condolences to them.

Let us all Sabahan be united in prayer. May this storm would pass.

Lord bless us, surrounds us with your grace during this hard time of ours.